Friday, November 28, 2008
Looking in yourself **
1. Take a recent picture of yourself or just snap yourself on the spot
2. Don't change your clothes, Don't fix your hair , etc... just like tat..
1,2,3.. Capture "U" at this moment..
3. Post the picture with NO editing..
4. Post these instructions as well with your picture
5. Tag 5 people to do this
Oh no.. i m so lackadaisical..and looks like in low spirit..Indeed, just woke up from my lovely bed after consuming tablets of medicine tat cause sleeping disease.. =.= The worst thing is, with pimples at my lower jaw and forehead.. @#$%^*@#$%&* i hate it!
i shouldn't make myself to this stage..oni slep for 3 or 4 hours oni per day..haih..
Looking back to 3 months ago,
The differences are so obvious..what can i do.. unless all the lecturers have mercy on us.. cut down d load of EXAMINATIONS (IMPOSSIBLE, IT RUNS ACCORDING TO SCHEDULE.. )~~
anyway.i shud tell myself to take care..lolz....since i chose to study medicine..It is fated that "all work and no play",that's my life..
I tagged Noty-gan, Kaiting, Valynne, Ting and Junru.. ^_^
No worries..
i m NOT
a hypnotist..
naturally..
And, now i know..
until i lost d ability
to mesmerize myself..
"you can,you can do it.."
the concetration of
this motivation force
is decreasing sharply..
not all becos of d
endless exams..
... ...
just feel that i m too weak
sick for sometime,
i wish to have a great sleep..
(lots of them wish too)
And,it is hard..
juz too tense..
til nid d power of ebony & ivory
drag me to d dreamy world
i m sick,
add on d "sickness" of
not understand every single thing
during Russian class
being d worst in d class
d feeling is grievous
should i blame my agent
for not arranging a proper Russian class
before this
OR i should blame myself
for not enuf diligent..
On d way to anatomy clas
i got my 1st fall
on d snowy ground
it was painful
then,
found out
forget to bring my lab coat
is a taboo for ANATOMY
oops~
All the falls in a day
in d end,
tears collapse
yesterdae,asleep with tears
todae, back with tears
No matter how,
i stil hav to face it..
No worries,
i m fine.
i juz nid a place to throw
d sadness away..
Tomorrow,
my smile will continue
to head forward.. ^_^
Thursday, November 27, 2008
我累了…
原来……
我天生不是催眠师…
“你可以……你可以的……”
这种推动力的含量
每天都在脑袋里消失
被液体化
终于
泪 选择崩溃
昨天是哭着睡着的
今天是哭着回来的
不用担心
我只想要个地方
把不开心丢掉
明天
我会继续用微笑
面对一切。。
Friday, November 21, 2008
Snow_ING ^_+ & ^_- Sick_ING
** My favourite WHITE ground with Blue sky..**
20 Nov 2008
It's my first winter in my life.. i supposed to b as excited as my fellows coursemates..but........
I had to sit a killer colloq (final exam) later..8.40am---ANATOMY..but i reli felt not well..felt my head was spinning..i was coughing badly from d day b4 dis..but i stil wanted to take my colloq,faster end al these hard time..When i was wearing my shoes..OUT OF SUDDEN..i saw sumthing red on my fingers..WAT??IS BLOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I got stunned.I went bec to my room n turned my head upward..It's was my 1st time to have nose bleeding in my life~My roomate approached to me and helped me to stop it..but it was hard..others frens like Jasper & Gan oso came in..I know they got a fright..sorry~ @.@ even myself also..Juat after a while, my mouth was full with blood..>.<
Back to d point...My nose stopped bleeding finally..it was 8am now.Gosh..sorryyyyy..CHARIS,VALYNNE,CHIEN HUEY,JASPER & GAN..Outside was snowing heeavily, like snow storm..i was like snowGirl..=.='' Falling sick during winter was sufferable..hardly can breath..We rushed to our Anatomy Department at nearly 9am.Luckily my horror teacher (=p) Valentina stil not in. i was voiceless that time..Headache was killing my brain cells~ Valentina was merciless & brutal to me..she did not spare me althou i was sick,voiceless..My pointing oni got 3( d best is 5,worst is 1)..She was juz being impatient to listen to me to finish my words..After 3 hours of struggling time,finally everything back to d ground. I got 5 for mcq,4 for oral and lecture.So,overall is 4 i think.. **
Ater anatomy lecture, I skipped my General Chemistry replacement class.. i think i reli need a good rest..My neck is superly pain..may b hurt my muscle due to my study table too low..On d way bec..it was my 1st time to enjoy d spectacular scenery..Below are some pictures (before&after, symbolize autumn vs winter). Here it goes :
** My Pushkin Hostel in Yugo-Zapadnaya **
** Canteen at my lecture and class buiding-- SEE d breads?? seems normal rite? d price is from RM 3 ~Rm7.. scary~~
Winter season starts..d fallling of degree still acceptable.. hope dis 1st winter is a pleasance ones..Happie 1st winter ... (@^_^@)
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
第一次…接触
《月光》下部曲…
Family-Father And Mother i love You
想念……
* Sweet Sweet Time @.@ *
好姐妹 ^_+ & ^_-
这首歌部分的歌词蛮贴切进入大学后的日子。由幼稚园开始,又或许是托儿所吧,爱我们的Daddy、Mummy就开始规划选定我们的人生学习环境…6年的小学、7年的中学…19年以来我们习惯了这样的生活,习惯身边的人,习惯家人的方式,习惯自己的好朋友群的“归属感”,习惯自己嘴里的酸甜苦辣,也或许连自己都没有发觉习惯了自己的“我行我素”……我想很多人小时候一定有想过渴望多些自由或快点长大吧~来到大学了,发现其实…人是念旧的,并不是天生就喜新厌旧。。以下载录的,我觉得某些部分就与我第一次听到《月光》时有了联想…
01.上了大学才知道,两个天天在一起的人不一定是朋友,有可能什么都不是。
也许需要《时间》吧…歌词里说“长大后身边的人总是沉默,把自己的心反锁…”社会让
世纪的人都潜意识下这么做了… 但…也许人与人之间真的是讲究《缘分》……
02.上了大学才知道,从来不要和别人争论什么,因为那是没有结果的,无论谁对谁错。
本来就不会去争论~呵呵…*PEACE* ^^
03.上了大学才知道,手机是有事的时候用的,并不是为了交流感情。
在俄罗斯的医药大学,也许是繁忙生活所以…我只用手机打给爸爸妈妈,交流感情…
04.上了大学才知道,真心对一个人好不一定有回报,而你忽略的人往往有可能是最重视你的。
我想…大学是进入社会大染缸的初级班吧……
05.上了大学才知道,很多东西是可遇而不可求的,很多东西你只能拥有一次。
深深感受到了……
06.上了大学才知道,恋爱不一定是真心的,有可能是利益关系,有可能是攀比心理。
Oops..
07.上了大学才知道,原来中学老师教的是那么好,那么负责任。
哈哈!对丫…=p
08.上了大学才知道,很多时候自己遇到不开心事,千万不要渴望别人同情,大多数人会采取冷漠回敬的。那样会更让人家看不起。
人间还是有奇迹~=)
09.上了大学才知道,有很多东西是不属于你的,你使劲强求会遭天遣的。
10.上了大学才知道,生活是有很多不公平的,你一定要正视,相信实力和群众的眼睛。
11.上了大学才知道,人的性格可以差异到如此之大。
Mm..正所谓:“一种米养百种人”。。
12.上了大学才知道,一个人要自己对自己好,因为真正关心你的人很少,有了事他们也不一定会在你身边。所以要自己照顾自己。
不是全部的人但多数的人吧~
13.上了大学才知道,课程会在你不经意间,拉下很多,期末考试前不一定能补回来。
我每天上课念书16个小时多耶…睡觉都快变奢侈了…只希望勤能补拙~奇迹快出现…地狱的日子只为了迎接走往天堂的路吗…
14.上了大学才知道,钱用的是那么快,用钱的地方是那么多。
俄罗斯的普通空心小面包就已RM3.00++了…要省省省!!!
15.上了大学才知道,从现在开始应该把握每一个你能把握的人,放弃你留不住的人,不然因为想
留住个别人而失去一群人。
我只是想珍惜每一个身边的人,好难…
16.上了大学才知道,自己一定在乎自己的自尊,因为你的自尊在别人眼里根本不算什么。
好像真的是这样……(从别人身上发现的)
17.上了大学才知道,不要心情不好的时候对周围人发脾气,渴望他们谅解你,人家不是你的父
母,现在你可以明白父母对自己多么重要。
从来没对周围的人发脾气,却对父母发脾气任性过后就会后悔了~感恩我拥有他们是我的家人…
18.上了大学才知道。即便有人对情感看的无所谓,你一定要坚信,人之间的感情,有可能会令所
有东西无法超越的,但记住,只是有可能。
19.上了大学才知道,会遇到许多自己看不惯的人或事,但那与你无关,别人爱咋整随他便,别生不该生的气,不值。
20.上了大学才知道,许多曾经的人会变的让你认不出,但请留住回忆。
21.上了大学才知道,会遇到很多诱惑,无论别人怎么样,你是你,你有你的原则和底限。
22.上了大学才知道,会有人很讨厌你或者和你过不去,但是他爱怎么样就怎么样,我们要大度,
不和小人计较,但前提是你正确。
23.上了大学才知道,很多人无法理解男女之间的朋友关系,在一起就一定是恋人,不是恋人就一
定不能在一起。
是一般人的愚见吗@是幼稚……还是这世上男女之间本来就很难成为朋友呢……
24.上了大学才知道,学习要刻苦,因为凭聪明就能应付大学科目的人是风毛翎角。
刻苦没有聪明也没用…… ·〉·《
25.上了大学才知道,原来时间一空闲下来是那么无聊,丝毫没有中学的充实的感觉。
错!大学好累人~我好想好好睡一觉……或看场戏~
26.上了大学才知道,太在乎别人了往往会伤害自己。
对她,连身边的人都叫我放弃,她想怎样就怎样。。但……因为是一起住、每天见面的人,我就是放不下而会对她的冷漠而难过……她的微笑好难见到…
27.上了大学才知道,对自己好的人会随着时间的流逝越来越少。
28.上了大学才知道,可以不把所有人当朋友,但千万不能把一个人当敌人,至少可以当同学。
29.上了大学才知道,玩你能玩的起的,玩不起的千万别玩,不然会输的什么都没有的。
30.上了大学才知道,快乐常常来自回忆,而痛苦常常来自于回忆与现实的差距。
我就徘徊在这漩涡中……呜呜~
31.上了大学才知道,原来上课,吃饭,上自习常常得自己一个人。
所以更想家~
32.上了大学才知道,有很多人的想法与做法你无法理解,或是根本不知道他在想什么,千万别在
那揣摩或者瞎猜,那样会让自己累,既然人家要保持神秘感那就让人家保持去啊,自己又不是占星师。
我开始了解这样与她的相处方式了……
33.上了大学才知道,每个人都是带有“地方特色”的。
34.上了大学才知道,别人请客吃饭或着自己请别人吃饭都是很平常的,甚至请一个不怎么熟的人都是有可能的
35.上了大学才知道,每个人都是认为自己的家乡最好,无论他的家乡贫穷或富裕。
我想念马来西亚!=p
其实很多事本来就会发生……只是在有些时候我们在对的时间遇到对的人而互相扶持所以情况并不糟……一个人去面对难过的事所以才觉得是世界末日吧……不过,我会学习珍惜这6年漫长非一般纯念书没娱乐的大学生活~加油啊!^_^
Sunday, November 16, 2008
月光
**从前明月光
疑是地上霜
举头望明月
低头思故乡**
已经忘了这首诗的作者与题目了。熟悉的感觉~但这浅而易明的字句对我过去的一般人来说应该是觉得朗朗上口,或是小时候曾经念过的东西之外,应该不会有太多其它的感觉了。。 也许《忽略》就是人类擅长的习惯,失去了才会知道《拥有》的幸福与《失去》的痛。。
大家总是说“外国的月亮比较圆”…Mm……这是真的哦。。哈哈。。最近,我发现我开始喜欢俄罗斯的一样东西就是月亮了。。我一直喜欢的星星,总是给我失望。也许是太冷的缘故吧。。=.=lll 之前在新加坡工作那段时间,总是等不到星星,我问我阿姨新加坡是不是没有星星丫~~她说:“对哦,好像是耶,很难除非去海边…”那……这也许是先进国家的遗憾。。现在又来到一个“没有”星星的国家,我想我已经绝望了。。@.@" 呵~
这是两个月以来第一次不慌张赶巴士、地铁而细心留意上学路上的人、事、物……原来我习惯《忽略》了…
这真的是…我在俄罗斯繁忙马路中央拍下来的。。呵。别吓着了…=p
很好奇喔,怎么“你”总是那么圆…像咸蛋黄一样,天天都是初一十五吗?^^
黄靖伦《月光》这首歌,我放在这儿想与你们分享歌词(歌词前半部分,后半部分下一次的部落再续)…我们总是会习惯家人对我们的爱,对我们的好。。有些人甚至对朋友的好100%,但家人却是排在最后的~但…长大后总要等到生活上遇到一些事却才会想到他们。。而我…对家人觉得抱歉因为并不能留在他们身边……尤其他们生病了,我的离开更觉得难受~对不起,daddy,mummy!我知道我曾经的任性让你们苦恼,也许让我来这儿念医科曾经也是你们的苦恼,但你们放心,我会好好照顾自己,好好念书。你们也一样喔~Daddy你总是说:“得与失,有得必有失。得得失失难以去衡量…”。我想。。人生就是这样吧。。所以我现在应该,也唯有勇敢走下去。。现在遇到的难题可能失去勇气,但不知不觉…其实得到的是--成长中的经验。。个中玄妙需要每个人独自参透了。=)
加油!诗惠…^_+ 加油,爱司!^_- 加油丫,大家! ^_^
Sunday, November 9, 2008
gAstRlc,QulvEr oF D hEart
Saturdae. No class but lazy to cook. From morning until late evening i only consumed cereal n 7 pieces of biscuits. Frankly,i din felt hungry at all d wholedae..Mm..i juz din have d intention to grab anything to eat,neither bread nor cake.My dad la d person to b blamed.We were pampered,he alwiz prepared d meals readily,and gave us choices,eg we hav oni 6 members in family,but breakfast normally wil hav 7 or 8 sets of various kinds of food.D remnant one wil bcum his lunch n teatime food..(THANKS DAD for being lovely,MIZZ..)Until 8PM++, time to go Malaysian Fellowship meeting.Today,Aaron had prepared delicios maccoroni for all of us.Tats my dinner..(may b was "breakluncher" officially..lol..=D)Then..while d meeting was going on 1/2 way,my stomach was twitching~Extremely painful..but..i reli wished i could bear d pain until Andrew finished his bible teaching,i juz did not want to miss any parts..Passing 1/2 hour to me was like watching a whole episode of HongKong drama,i tried my best to concentrate to every word.
Finally,until d end of d meeting,b4 they wana end with a song,i told Charis i cant stand up,i nid to go bec..Suddenly,she was so keyed-up.( Dis IS Charis, get nervous easily,here she is whenever sum1 is not in WELL CONDITION,thou u just look pale bcos of strong wind is blowing..she wil keep asking:"u ok a? sure?u sure onot?u look pale?"OR "u ok a?i stand in front of u blocking d wind for u.." haha..afterall,i juz can say she is a good n caring person.) Too painful until teardrops..Charis got me milk n water to eat medicine.WHAT'S WRONG WITH MY STOMACH?Kinda long time never meet GASTRIC..Slowly,few visitors coming..(Thanks ^^)
Valynne's turn..Oh no..a pro-patient caretaker~She heated d milk juz to make hot honey milk and feed me SPOON BY SPOON,filled hot-water WARMER-WARMER bag for me to let my stomach feel better,heated up her black soya fried chicken n rice..feel touched!^_^She banned me from studying strictly..SO SORRY still insist to study, u say it will kill our brain n liver cells if study when one's falling sick.I know,i know,u r thinking for my own good..i m juz worry bout mondae general chem final..SO SORRY that i cant finish d honey milk,wasted ur effort!but..i juz sick of d sweetness..hee.."You la,pour too much love on me le la..haha.. =p "
* d SWEET SWEET honey milk & WARM WARM water bag..d NICE NICE rice ya inside my stomach le o..hee *
Mmm..I wasn't alone in Russia,am i right..Charmaine..(@^_^@)
My 1st blog,I got lotsa feedbacks..surprising cos i juz nid a place to murmur out sumthing,so wrote that..THANK Q TO EVERYONE! Thank you for always there for me althou not by my side.. I know i am not tough enough to go thru d obstacles here,but you all give me support,encouragement n strength to head forward.. Shibasiba ^_^
* Shibasiba = thank q in Russian
**People don't care how much you know,until they know how much you care...**
Friday, November 7, 2008
Baby-blog is born -- 1st day
不知不觉……
但老实说我还是不太适应。。
也许你会觉得很好奇,怎么两个月了还是《弱,差,惨》…
但…俄罗斯真的不是一个你能想象那么美好的Europe国家。。
Gentinised_FalryLand部落的诞生,
是把在这儿的点点滴滴载录下来与家人和朋友分享。。
我想也许是自己太累了,太想家了。。
想念daddy,mummy,二姐,Kelvin和Jess ...
想念爱司,妈妈的菜,朋友,以前拥有的一切。。
讨厌这种思念的感觉。。怎么自己这么没用呢。。
繁重的课业,无形的压力,林种的是非传言~~
我。。。真的很累了。。
以前喜欢当医生,其中一个原因是因为……
不喜欢需要用“嘴巴”的工作。。
但我记得在新加坡工作认识的前辈Uncle Sunny说:
“有人的地方就会有是非。你要学会--人类评分”
对不起,我就是学不会。。
所以。。现在心受伤了跌倒了痛了哭了。。
人生中要这样才会长大吗?
这里…--"gentinised"-- 一个被优化的神化空间。。
只有最真、最善、最美的东西能存在。。
属于自己的空间。。
不管日子再怎样困难,也要加油!
诗';惠';惠,加油加油!^-^