自医。

原来
真的生病。
浅中步入深
医不了
能医不自医

看着你们
还没好起来
微笑看着笑
我知道
它还要病好久
没装病
只知道医我的
解铃还需系铃人。

平步。青云

当从一个谷底
再反弹起来
从第一个实现
再到慢慢的抵达青云
那种等待第一个的到来
在谷底时
四面来临的负面打击
心理建设不仅仅是累积
也要很多扶持与鼓励
有人说
玫瑰虽然很美
可是全身长刺
生命有起有落
可是一样幸福
小时候
经历一场的大病
的确改变好多人生观
“凡是不放弃，
凡是就有希望。”
我现在好记得昨天
那秒第一个实现的快乐
继续期待好多个的到来
爬到下一个人生的顶端。

愿意成长的花蕾

所謂的真實，
真的好不透明。
如果那句對不起，
沒有真誠那有意義嗎…
著實的付出或許被你抹殺
我們的看重或許被你輕視
裂痕需要時間去修復，
它看起來是傷得不輕
只因真的有用心。
曾经若不经意的错，
对不起。
如今方知我们的误会
而是外间揣测的假真相

若是要敷衍
那早已不是這個著作者
一直以為彼此慢慢都懂
我感恩，
但原來對大家
基本的坦白
只是一向情願。路还不长
不避违的是朝夕相对
一个机会
凡是从此剖开心蕾
打开这个绳结
不一样的
是向阳的心态
还有变得更深的根蒂。
或許
大家都需要多一點時間
或許
大家都繼續存在些隔閡
隨之一切也許因離開而被淡忘
這一刻以後
選擇忘了…
繼續尋找值得留下的回憶，
可以一起嗎。。

生活在俄罗斯
常常都有无奈的感觉
话说此地不留人，自有留人处
谢谢一个朋友的留言
心不随境转。心自转。
虽然没有水深火热的活着
但在截止日期一步一步地逼近
很难不让人心不安

船到桥头自然直
尽着力。。看着开
到底要比露宿街头的来得幸福。
感恩。祈祷……

*苦恼中*
好想好想，
暂时放下包袱
一刻的在自由里。
搜寻许久都没有
还是最真的海边
感觉声音最真

也许到那时候
却又不想只是一刻
卸下对某种解决不了的责任
等待那个解脱。

今天天使又跟我说
人生就应该过的不后悔
除了健康买不到
那是不是想做的事就该去做呢
下意识我真的觉得天使的话
开始和恶魔synchronize了
天亮天黑日起日落
又有谁能说定下一秒
每一天都是一个恩典
*看见新希望中*

MOSCOW ZOO - they enjoy their care-free and stress-free life

Life isnt like a bed of roses alwiz, but definitely there will be full of hopes ...
 * continue to believe*

Matthew 8:24-26

And behold, there arose a great storm on the sea, so that the boat was being swamped by the waves; but he was asleep. And they went and woke him, saying, “Save us, Lord; we are perishing.” And he said to them, “Why are you afraid, O you of little faith?” Then he rose and rebuked the winds and the sea, and there was a great calm.


Today my fren asked me , what is my dream after he watched a show. He said a man without dream will be perished. Keep moving on is the way of proving today is better than yesterday. Love life kids are alwiz one of the sources of my motivation. I have an odd feeling often develops at class when i look at thick medical book, a driving force that will tell me tonight u gotta read up these interesting stuff.. Often i feel i am weak but still that is one of the reasons i am at this point of the journey..

" Could u pls help us to live life to the fullest.. " said by a girl who had the end-stage-osteosarcoma that had passed away. Enjoying the process, than highlighting the result. Sometimes we would gain when we are not notified, in different ways and different moments of life when we realize. *SMILE*

LOVE LIFE, L2 

期待遇见你。
蓝色的你，蓝色的天空。
马来西亚，我在等你。

                                       Kievky Pakzal (Kievky Train Station)

                                           Monastery , nearby the hospital

                                                   On the way to the next class

                                                    Enjoyed feeding the pigeons

                                 Arbatskaya Metro station

                                                    - москва - Spring Tulips season -



还有好多的梦要追，
努力实现这些心愿
希望给予小小贡献
路还好长还很遥远
却需要一步一脚印
我不是要一双翅膀
只想要你们的支持
在你看不到的世界
一直狠狠地摔一跤
累积的不只是经验
更是坚持的旅程碑
一生时间附上筹码
败挫补拙也不回头
为了看见那线曙光
一同并肩一块作战
一同遥望同个方向
请你不要看轻《追梦》。

15 May 2012
Blue Monday, stroked thru'out the whole day by different incidents.
Every hit made me felt so tired, but i dun wanna give up..
I can feel the angel and devil were fighting, and i just wish to have someone to guide me that night.
Life issues, a sudden-rose-up family incident, Concomitantly, third strike attacked.. Standing at the cross-junction, the blocks that just popped out on the route of studies which need to consider wisely what to choose.. i could have broken down just becos of the accumulated strength used up over a day..

After a drizzling night without a good rest but had a hug from her thou without much words, brought the smile on "her" face just becos life still goes on.. Without full remission, and then on and off, many small mini little unrelated matters could just account for u to solve..   The feeling was terrible where u feel disconnected from everything .. Be strong, the angel said. Get some rest, the devil said.  It was a disappointed Tuesday, i tried so much to keep motivated, and again the fourth one attacked silently-sickness..

Lookin forward to a better Wednesday, a great Thursday, a wonderful good Friday and the best Weekend..
Moving on .. while walking with Him.