Xi'An Part 1 - Smiles

Smiles can brighten our life. Apparently, the suffering and pain are some of the factors that can make people forget how to smile.. Let's see how do you feel when looking at their smiles but seeing into their eyes ... ...

* with Pastor David & newly painted wall and mullar *
* Lois (UK), Susan (Scotland), Isaac Siow, Chin Ling and I were grouped to renew this stairway *
* ChinLing had a good time with the lovely kids *
* Bev ( Australia) is the long-termed volunteer of China Heart International. She is a former experienced nurse.
* Nicola ( Wales) is a journalist and a part time teacher of a private centre. Her favourite quote is Amazing. Lovely and then give you a wink. She loves kids. *
* Soo Ying worked well with her Red team! " Jiayou .. Jiayou .. " they shouted excitedly.
* Game Time *



* Sea World *
* The other groups cleaned and painted 3 1/2 classrooms and corridors that was rundown in 5 days.
* Calviny *

* Nicola & Bev *

* Praise the Lord that the principal of Dr School requested to join us during the pray and worship. * Right-Barney ( Australia) *

* Mercy Team *
* ChinLing, Lois & I * I washed one part of my hair with carosine b'coz got oil paint on it >.< ** Hardworking Lynn that painted all the blackboard frames and doors. *
* Dr Liu, principal of Dr School also took part. He always said duno how to repay, but all of us know well that we are building His kingdom. This mission is for Him. May His blessing be poured abundantly to every corner of the school and every single wonderful kid. *

* Glen (Australia) is a very nice guy who brought us lotsa laughters. He supervised the work so that would be able to finish on time. *
* Aaron and Bev wore the specs that were to protect our eyes during school maintenance. *









* Isaac them went to a boarding school that the management strictly diciplines the problematic teenagers. They had English conversation in that 2 days to know the stories behind them which led my teamates to tears. *
* Pain behind the smile.No one knows, but their presence brought sparkles of hope in their life. *


* Pastor David & John (England) *
* Our Malaysia Team leader, Isaac Siow *


* John and Ros (Australia) were teaching them English. *

* Lunch Time at boarding school *

* The hostel at Dr School * Rundown area, but ChinaHeart International sponsored the heating system for the children so that they can focus in their studies during winter. *
* the kitchen of the hostel *

* Their smiles looked so innocent and sweet. *



* We mingled with the kids at Dr School.Although they are having spring summer break now, but they were not reluctant to back to school for extra class. I really amazed their spirit of gaining knowledge at such downtown area. *
* Aaron bought big watermelons for us to prevent sun stroke. *

* Ros & SooYing *

Re- Breathe

I am Back!!! ^-^

Flying from another world back to my own comfort zone..
i do not dare to say it's a renewable trip, but, it did change my perception about life as expected..to a certain extent.

KL,M'sia -- (^.^) -- Xi' An,China -- (~.~) -- KL, M'sia -- (-.-)

Using this icons, i think it can describe my feeling ultimately.
None of us would know the purpose of the great changes happened before our mission ...
Financial issue, H1N1, Family's feeling ... Bringing all this complicated knots up to the plane..
The Lord told me to {Stand Firmly} by using a verse. It sounded simple.That moment just simply depended on me that how i wana practice my faith.Critical moment.I found no one i could share to,not anyone could understand the feeling of bearing Him and keeping in heart,unable to speak up in front of the family.

Yes, I asked You. I surrendered.
If my mum was given the green light from You in all ways, one of my vision '09 will be answered too. Before heading off to Guangzhou, i had lil panic actually,suddenly i felt myself was so lil, why i would be there? The feeling was so odd, same question kept popping out in my mind although i knew the fact confidently that He put me into this 6-members team . Originally 10 of us, until very last minute left with this 5 girls and the only boy who is the leader.

Time flies. Really happy that whole Mercy Team could work up well, with other members from various countries and different backgrounds. The intimate bond that been built up during this short period was so "amazing" ;p ( Nicola's quote), all of us felt like a family. *hugz* It's very hard to put these past 2 weeks in words here.Every single day in mission was a climax.Eventually, 6/8 just reached and put an end to all these.

Finally, back to my blessed homeland.Learning to appreciate to be grateful.Thankful for all the fruits i tasted throughout the journey.I understand, God that is so wise who knows our NEED the most. NEED vs WANT. He measures according to His scale, but He will grant our WANT if it is elevated to the level of NEED.Compared to all my unfortunate friends in China, I realise how fortunate am I. I wouldn't dare to say I will not have extravagant hope anymore in the future, but i will learn to use the blessed experience to comfort myself whenever in a valley.

More touching,funny,heartbreaking,amazing China mission stories will be brought to this blessed space soon. Stay tuned. Haha ..

放手的沉默

拖延的话语
总是没有勇气的支援
原谅我的柔弱
理由永远那么的深刻
在脑海里宣言着
一万个没有幸福的未来

分秒急促过去
偶而的发呆像坐时光机
穿梭回去看三年前的曾经
冰冻了的心无疑已认定了结果
再努力 无奈 感动
也无法为这旋律的谱
填上渴望的天长地久

命中注定我相信
太宗爷爷的故事代代流传
晴天阴天雨天都等待
原来不清楚的是我们
感动后不想自私
多个晴天后更明白什么叫勉强
放下的沉默独自找寻那道彩虹

一颗心永远要让很多人住进去
伤害最深的不是很多人
不明白的最终是一个人
明白爱情回馈的进退两难
若想给未来住进去的她一个幸福
我先作最尾端的结局吧
堂皇的理由 多美丽的包装
也只是逞强活在这搞不清楚的关系

或许太了解
还是为完美找理由
为这样的柔弱对好多个不起
决定了不走两个人的路
痛苦主宰着没有开始过的友谊
骑士的勇闯精神
很欣赏他答应的专一
很佩服他守护的坚持
却也明白最后不过如此

放下太遥远的起点
不如就保留原来的清楚
珍惜这份礼物
依然是朋友

心情报告 ;p

回来一个星期了……
好忙好忙好好忙……
感觉自己都好不适应……
一开始就收到很多关心和寒暄的信息……
长大了的感觉突然涌上脑海……
一股悲悲的感觉油然而生……
大家都好远……一起长大的回忆却依稀一幕幕甜甜地上映……
也有种力不从心的感觉……
好多都说“有时间的话大家见个面吧……保持联络哦 ^^ ”
这样的话有时像条绳子绑着之间的通关话语…
可是又好像是客套话……一封信息的结语……
在怎样……人生中就是有千千万万个红尘过客…
为简单的人生做完美做配角。
只因……再热情的心也没办法照顾好不在身边每一个人……
就连在身边的，有时候想珍惜到底也感觉迷茫……
这次回来……有种内疚。
见到他们的忙，我的《度假》似乎是过分，
不是对自己严苛，只是已经21岁了的大女孩，
好像还生活得很童话，
走回来看见他们利用着时间与自己的健康来换我的前途……

一个问题在脑中转：当初我真的又任性了？
我能帮上忙的……唯有尽量不添麻烦，
在店里能帮的其实有限……懊恼~
想找份工作却来不及了，
时间并不够足以被聘请。

祷告被赐予顽强的生命力往前面的路开朗乐观地完成梦想来回报…………

《为什么要当医生？？？》
好多爸妈的朋友和一些许久未见的朋友最近会“访问”的必答题……
若我答：“希望。因为像给不幸福的人希望。”
这样的答案好像很……
那若我说: “志愿。小时候就这样的坚持下来。”
虽然都是我心里的答案………就少一份勇气。

明天就要去KL找妹妹了和她男友的家人们去云顶游乐翻天、
和朋友们姐妹们去为今年的暑假留下棒棒的回忆…………^-^
给自己一个机会，去寻找自己的答案。
一个重心冲刺，让梦想更鲜明。
在把混乱的扭成平行线，就以这趟启程作为开始。
加油！

手中溜走的幸福

那天在俄罗斯的机场……
通过检查扫描步骤时，
被朋友拿走的随身品中……
再拿回时竟没发现没了它……
在飞机上发现不见了……
睡不着了……
心情不好了
难过丫……
现在 已经变麻木了……

这一次回来，像过关斩将地……
不见了最喜欢的音符耳环和S3TO戒指……
找回差点被弄丢的手提电脑……
真是好倒霉哦！！！
对不起丫……
象征友谊的戒指……
也许…
越紧张，越容易失去的……
越不在乎，失去后越难过……
我是幸福的……
失去和拥有是正比吗？


失去了……
我责任最大……
找不回……
我闷闷不乐……
不见哦……
我学习小心……
我不想了……
想念……还是想念……

ThankFUL..

Moscow >>>.........Flying ........ >>> Malaysia
After 17 hours

It had been quite some time since my last post..
the greatest difference is.. I M IN MALAYSIA currently.. my SUMMER break is on its way now..



Finally, i finished my 1ST year course in Medicine. Hooray!
Finally, it comes to this..
from 14th of june till 17th of june, was busy to prepare my last paper, General chemistry.
I was very tensed up,anxious as i did not want to screw up my last paper.. My seniors were ovelwhelmed in the joy of going back Malaysia that few days. And, some of us did have the thought of giving our best only, could not wait anymore to leave Moscow asap.. Over looking-forward-back Home syndrome. *grin*

So, i prayed hard. Father God, i know i cant staying up whole night to study. i remembered well my lesson during Math paper 2 in STPM that time.
i was blank due to this reason. i sulked. i was sad. i could do one BUT..

So, this time, i asked YOU for ur coaching, guidance.. i took up the risk to study gen chem whole night,tried to remember as much as i could, filled my brain capasity to the max. i love chemistry.
That's why it made me felt i must get a distinction,5! Not for any other reason, i just wana walked wif YOU. really surrendered..Your presence is there all the time. I m grateful that i was able to answer it well with the blessed wisdom. My distinction is to glorify Your name. :-)

I still remember how Holy spirit guided me to Mdm.Yelina, instead of being questioned by Prof. Gregkof. There were only one boy and me only in our group, who were chosen to go to this killer professor.We din know what happened between them. But, he did a bit unfair that giving mark according to who is your teacher apparently. I dunno, sumhow, i was led to Yelina by Holy Spirit, giving me the courage to request to Mdm. Yelina to oral me.At 1st, she asked me to look for my result book. I thanked God when the lab asst found my book was on Prof.Gregkof's table >.<'' It was not that i din prepare, i wasn't so sure about my calculation part,which was actually a theory question on ECG. I knew that will be a high possibility i wil get this topic. >< All these are miracles. i hate Physics to the most since secondary. But now, i love it more. that proved what i wrote on the facebook's shoutout" i wana fall in love wif Mr. Physics.." I am thankful for all my distinctions and 2 excellents. My 2nd year........... Haha... Forget it now. Enjoy my hol ^-^



i reached on 18th of JUne.. my hol wil be ended on 23rd of JUne. i will be flying to China on 23rd of July for my MISIOn Trip. It lasts roughly 2 weeks until 6th of JUne.
http://mfmissions.blogspot.com

Let see... wat's gona happen during this slightly-shorter-than-2-months hol~ Fully utilize it to the Max~~ Hee.. tend to be lazy.. just wana lie on bed and do nothing,which is impossible,and cant afford to do so in MOscow~

Love MalaySia..
Love the food~
Love y Family..
Love my frenssss........ S3T0...
Love my bed...
And, Hate my medic books...
* haven started my revision ;p *
Hope all my Moscow Frens are enjoying tO0o...
Take care and keep in touch.
Misszz 1433 occupants..
Lolzzz...