Thursday, June 25, 2009

心情报告 ;p



回来一个星期了……
好忙好忙好好忙……

感觉自己都好不适应……

一开始就收到很多关心和寒暄的信息……

长大了的感觉突然涌上脑海……
一股悲悲的感觉油然而生……
大家都好远……一起长大的回忆却依稀一幕幕甜甜地上映……

也有种力不从心的感觉……
好多都说“有时间的话大家见个面吧……保持联络哦 ^^ ”

这样的话有时像条绳子绑着之间的通关话语…
可是又好像是客套话……一封信息的结语……

在怎样……人生中就是有千千万万个红尘过客…
为简单的人生做完美做配角。

只因……再热情的心也没办法照顾好不在身边每一个人……
就连在身边的,有时候想珍惜到底也感觉迷茫……

这次回来……有种内疚。
见到他们的忙,我的《度假》似乎是过分,
不是对自己严苛,只是已经21岁了的大女孩,
好像还生活得很童话,
走回来看见他们利用着时间与自己的健康来换我的前途……

一个问题在脑中转:当初我真的又任性了?
我能帮上忙的……唯有尽量不添麻烦,
在店里能帮的其实有限……懊恼~
想找份工作却来不及了,
时间并不够足以被聘请。

祷告被赐予顽强的生命力往前面的路开朗乐观地完成梦想来回报…………


《为什么要当医生???》

好多爸妈的朋友和一些许久未见的朋友最近会“访问”的必答题……
若我答:“希望。因为像给不幸福的人希望。”
这样的答案好像很……

那若我说: “志愿。小时候就这样的坚持下来。”

虽然都是我心里的答案………就少一份勇气。

明天就要去KL找妹妹了和她男友的家人们去云顶游乐翻天、
和朋友们姐妹们去为今年的暑假留下棒棒的回忆…………^-^

给自己一个机会,去寻找自己的答案。

一个重心冲刺,让梦想更鲜明。
在把混乱的扭成平行线,就以这趟启程作为开始。
加油!




Saturday, June 20, 2009

手中溜走的幸福


那天在俄罗斯的机场……
通过检查扫描步骤时,
被朋友拿走的随身品中……
再拿回时竟没发现没了它……
在飞机上发现不见了……
睡不着了……
心情不好了
难过丫……

现在 已经变麻木了……

这一次回来,像过关斩将地……

不见了最喜欢的音符耳环和S3TO戒指……

找回差点被弄丢的手提电脑……

真是好倒霉哦!!!
对不起丫……
象征友谊的戒指……
也许…
越紧张,越容易失去的……
越不在乎,失去后越难过……
我是幸福的……
失去和拥有是正比吗?


失去了……
我责任最大……

找不回……
我闷闷不乐……

不见哦……
我学习小心……

我不想了……
想念……还是想念……


ThankFUL..

Moscow >>>.........Flying ........ >>> Malaysia
After 17 hours



It had been quite some time since my last post..
the greatest difference is.. I M IN MALAYSIA currently.. my SUMMER break is on its way now..



Finally, i finished my 1ST year course in Medicine. Hooray!
Finally, it comes to this..

from 14th of june till 17th of june, was busy to prepare my last paper, General chemistry.
I was very tensed up,anxious as i did not want to screw up my last paper.. My seniors were ovelwhelmed in the joy of going back Malaysia that few days. And, some of us did have the thought of giving our best only, could not wait anymore to leave Moscow asap.. Over looking-forward-back Home syndrome. *grin*


So, i prayed hard. Father God, i know i cant staying up whole night to study. i remembered well my lesson during Math paper 2 in STPM that time.
i was blank due to this reason. i sulked. i was sad. i could do one BUT..

So, this time, i asked YOU for ur coaching, guidance.. i took up the risk to study gen chem whole night,tried to remember as much as i could, filled my brain capasity to the max. i love chemistry.
That's why it made me felt i must get a distinction,5! Not for any other reason, i just wana walked wif YOU. really surrendered..Your presence is there all the time. I m grateful that i was able to answer it well with the blessed wisdom. My distinction is to glorify Your name. :-)


I still remember how Holy spirit guided me to Mdm.Yelina, instead of being questioned by Prof. Gregkof. There were only one boy and me only in our group, who were chosen to go to this killer professor.We din know what happened between them. But, he did a bit unfair that giving mark according to who is your teacher apparently. I dunno, sumhow, i was led to Yelina by Holy Spirit, giving me the courage to request to Mdm. Yelina to oral me.At 1st, she asked me to look for my result book. I thanked God when the lab asst found my book was on Prof.Gregkof's table >.<'' It was not that i din prepare, i wasn't so sure about my calculation part,which was actually a theory question on ECG. I knew that will be a high possibility i wil get this topic. >< All these are miracles. i hate Physics to the most since secondary. But now, i love it more. that proved what i wrote on the facebook's shoutout" i wana fall in love wif Mr. Physics.." I am thankful for all my distinctions and 2 excellents. My 2nd year........... Haha... Forget it now. Enjoy my hol ^-^



i reached on 18th of JUne.. my hol wil be ended on 23rd of JUne.
i will be flying to China on 23rd of July for my MISIOn Trip. It lasts roughly 2 weeks until 6th of JUne.
http://mfmissions.blogspot.com


Let see... wat's gona happen during this slightly-shorter-than-2-months hol~ Fully utilize it to the Max~~ Hee.. tend to be lazy.. just wana lie on bed and do nothing,which is impossible,and cant afford to do so in MOscow~

Love MalaySia..
Love the food~
Love y Family..
Love my frenssss........ S3T0...
Love my bed...

And, Hate my medic books...
* haven started my revision ;p *

Hope all my Moscow Frens are enjoying tO0o...
Take care and keep in touch.
Misszz 1433 occupants..
Lolzzz...