是漠不关心
还是想置之事外
不会是本衷
本是善言
末为义尽
其实只是更颤抖
就让冰山保有着冷漠……

一次次的热潮
让再踏出每一步 都更深思熟虑
对不起没有了地位
氧化了放弃让言字畅流
四个季节的气息里
都不会再被尬住了吧
随心所欲的也能回家……

细水长流

淅沥淅沥
轻轻听
喜欢幻想这样的声音
流水一流至海
声音就没了

尽头不知在哪
从一而终就是这样
茫茫人海中
不知结果里的涩
却能预知这是蜜甜莲子
一凭那份直觉。

等待，璧合这样的种子
会在那细水长流中
开花结果

Beautiful sky

What is the colour of your sky todae?
i love white, so it represents great day
i love blue too, so it represents day with hope
A blueish white sky is the best day...

Sunny day does not last long..
it comes with black day, pink day and .... etc..

What if going to a very very very far far farrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr place away in the next second?
Not a -ve thinking, but i would wonder this question most of the time..
Not afraid.. but feel that still have alot of plans to be done and yet lots of things to be rectified..
A lot of people haven met yet ..

The most important thing is.. how to make TODAY is worth of it?

When it comes to going after the thing we love in life, do try not giving NO as answer ^-^
Cherish ice-cream moment, too. =P

Winter's Precursor

October ..
Autumn..
Maple leaves..
Rainy days..

symbols of this season..
the precursors of winter..
day light saving has started,
it means it is officially 5 hours earlier in Russia compared to Malaysia
No longer 4 hours..
Longer night..beauty sleep could be extended
A loud hooray could be listened in every heart..

Everyday,
before heading to class,
another thing dat hav to make sure to bring is rainbrella~^^
quite annoying as it rains almost everyday..
is my 2nd year here..
i feel quite use to..
jus dat i hate to see my muddy beloved Converse
Last saturdae, was a complicated day..
spent quite long time to study & prepare Histo..
i guess i cud score better if it is only theory without identifying slides
Haha.. Dreaming again Piscesian.. but was contented to the outcome
i feel that i learn too, and more even during control time..
i learn explaining skill, i learn to be calm and confident..
i learn to be shaped.. i learn to differentiate true and false..
i learn to listen to voice of sincerity.. Exams have becum another platform for me to grow..to challenge myself,to have more motivations,to gain more knowledge to equip a medicine student... How can one give up before trying? how can one give up if only attempts 1-2 times; In fact, Success belongs to those who run to the end of race..

Sleeping time was less than 6 hours for the last few days..but stil went to Big Asan (shopping centre) after histo control in that afternun =( impossible for a piggie wil do so BUT .. i went.. to accompany Lynn to get her dream chair at IKEA since she was the only gal..After waited roughly 1hour for bus, finally we reached home at roughly 9pm.The funny part was we were almost wet becoz a reckless driver splashed up a paddle of water ..We were so tired but we laughed becoz of our unfortunate =.=

Greyish blue sky causes sadness,, loneliness, down, moody..
For no reason, it can make you missing home indirectly..
but, raining washes off all the unhappy and polluted problems..
Really feel that LIFe is good when the environment looks so fresh..
Hope that Spring wil reach SOON..

What is the STOP CODON for winter ? Sob..
What is the START CODON for summer ? Hehe .. =p

Continue physio-ing .. ~.=

Missing Violin, Thinking of Piano

12.27am
Valynne is sleeping..
A typical piggie like me shud be joining her along making sweety dreams together at this wonderful night..
Haha.. i guess muz be over histo-ing d..
mumbling, thinking.. wondering... instead of reading..

At this moment, i miss my violin..
my life now seems so plain..
i hope by next summer, and every summer can continue learning violin, master it excellently... as well as the theory part.

i wish i can play piano one day..
it may seem is a wildful thought..
is a dream since small..
when my family condition turned better,
i convinced my mum to let my youngest sis to learn PIANO
and plays for me specially at times..
partly it was to fulfill my dream =p
Until my parents were able to support me,
i chose to learn violin when i was in secondary.
The reason was.. it is a classical musical instrument too,
and my mum rejected cello, then ..
it would be very easy to bring my beloved around to anywhere,
and play it anytime ..

p/s : Like valynne, she misses her beloved heavy piano at home.. Haha..

therefore, i saved and spent rm420
for my very 1st classical, typical, wooden violin..
i enjoy a lot when someone plays piano lively,
i think Valynne enjoys too, cos i owiz ask her to play if i discover piano..
Haha.. i never regret learning it..

if i were given a chance again when i am small to learn musical instrument,
i think i might not choose medic but being a musical student, major in piano and violin. Hee hee ... ^-^
i do reali reali reali hope i can finish my violin course and piano.. one day..
Time is not the factor.
wana fulfill it ..no matter when.. =)

一个月两个星期三天四个小时

没想过越想简单，感觉越累了……
今天看见朋友夹在书中的书签写着 “ Be Positive Always" 。。
“ NEVER MAKE YOURSELF FEEL LESS WORTHY BY COMPARING YOURSELF WITH OTHERS 。”
这样的写着这样一句话……我就算是站着了一个小时多脑袋却好累地在想：“真的是这样吗……” 只怕我会自己跟自己比较多了，挫折来时变得更需要好多好多勇气去跨越……我并不会妒忌，真的不是……嗯……不想造就很差，一个走在病人后的医生……

上了第二年，搬家八次的悲惨局面姑且不提，下一波的暴风考验来的真恰巧……妹妹的健康担心了这么久……其实真的很感谢主这么的恩典，我越担心的事，他越要告诉你担心太多了啦~哈哈……我以为找到固定宿舍是我唯一能帮到家里的方法，兜兜转转我听话的回到他给的摇篮，不飞了，累了。交托在他的孩子们的事总是神秘的被解决掉了，让你不知所措，而觉得真的太神了……家里的灰云过去了……我的彩虹，回来了……^-^

再一波的大雨下来……生理课竟被当了两次……我发现原来我不会说话，那个障碍是掏空信心的来源……第一次时觉得自己很笨，经已会的东西却不知不明不白为舍会写对说错……像乱答似……最近的那一次，感觉错在盲点上被误会没念书似的……才是最伤心。还是我很喜欢的生理课……感觉是糟透了。感谢老师说要给冲劲去念书，我的却是没试过这样气馁。。一刻受不了班上的气氛出去冷静了……想回头将来要做的是个专业医生，要做就要做清楚专业医药知识的……不管老师是多么的没有给分标准，但我在意的不是一时的过关。。不会就念到明白吧……这样，心情似乎平复下来了。不气馁不代表在被人在伤口上撒上盐巴时会坐在那儿无动于衷……也许太在意某一件事所以别人的无心与玩笑变得伤心了……是我太失败了……我是笨，笨得不该念了吗……我也不知道悲观的朋友又到访了……很辛苦但告诉这是要争气的，别弱下去丫……但晚上哭肿了眼睛睡个觉感觉很好了……不要气馁丫！！！下个星期再来……我要的是完成他给的旨意，做好他给我每一个时候的安排……让我坚持下去的泉源……好吗……
还有她，希望她真的别放在心上……不是你的错让我过不了考试，我真的没有怪你……不用太自责了哦……她也加油噢！！！

这一个一个月两个星期三天四个小时的秋天我又是一波三折的过…… 枫叶的季节过得好慢……

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好像是绝路了
又好像好多人出现了
感谢那些费心援手
好像有永远等不完的等一下
时间的考验在磨心

第二年好像更难走了
却不是先在学业碰钉子
来这儿已经十一天
几乎天天往学校办公楼报到
一天等五六个小时是等闲事了
那超级无敌慢慢慢的速度
快把这一辈子的脾气量用光
仍是一筹莫展的回家
大家无家的感觉很难受
仅能无奈这是我们的选择吗
家里学校一切的一切
烦烦烦烦累累累还能怎么办
哭不能解决的就忍住吧
无能为力只差未绞碎了

。。。

他的承诺需要愫信
再大的问题都有他的天使
再狂的浪花也有他的守护
期待病魔宿舍杂题远远的搁浅
我在等待的
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Trials in life

Proceeding to my 2nd year in medical field. Sounds everything runs smoothly.

I left Malaysia to Moscow on Monday. Thought staying at Spartive for 2 nights temporary. It costs us 300 Rubbles per night. Mos Lanka ( known as Money Laundry by a creative student ) which as the beneficiary of our university makes us headache deadly. Eventually, we will move to Kusminki which is our permanent hostel on 31st August. Our classes start on 1st September. Sigh~ Means we need to find place to stay for the next 6 days... Thanks alot Alot ALOT to the lovely & helpful seniors in Spartive. Few of our seniors are still holidaying in Malaysia. That's why we could fortunately stay at their rooms. Couldn't imagine what's gona happen without them ... ...

Tomorrow is our big day. We have to shift our stuff from 3 different places to Kusminki. More stories to be continued ~ >.<

The service message for this great Sunday is " Are you ready to travel? '' Thinking deeply. Very often we ask WHY when we face hardship or in an unfavorable situation. Learning to be obedient, just follow the waves of life. His plan is alwiz best for us. He places us in all zones, we mustn't take it for granted sometimes but keep practicing our faith to Him. Learning to acknowledge my weakness, and i want to rectify them, as I have a Holy Father as my friend.Dark, it is so dark that I could not able to recognize which is the true way. I need the brightest light to pull through ...

Thanks .. and thanks .. for yesterday, today, and tomorrow.

Xi'An Part 1 - Smiles

Smiles can brighten our life. Apparently, the suffering and pain are some of the factors that can make people forget how to smile.. Let's see how do you feel when looking at their smiles but seeing into their eyes ... ...

* with Pastor David & newly painted wall and mullar *
* Lois (UK), Susan (Scotland), Isaac Siow, Chin Ling and I were grouped to renew this stairway *
* ChinLing had a good time with the lovely kids *
* Bev ( Australia) is the long-termed volunteer of China Heart International. She is a former experienced nurse.
* Nicola ( Wales) is a journalist and a part time teacher of a private centre. Her favourite quote is Amazing. Lovely and then give you a wink. She loves kids. *
* Soo Ying worked well with her Red team! " Jiayou .. Jiayou .. " they shouted excitedly.
* Game Time *



* Sea World *
* The other groups cleaned and painted 3 1/2 classrooms and corridors that was rundown in 5 days.
* Calviny *

* Nicola & Bev *

* Praise the Lord that the principal of Dr School requested to join us during the pray and worship. * Right-Barney ( Australia) *

* Mercy Team *
* ChinLing, Lois & I * I washed one part of my hair with carosine b'coz got oil paint on it >.< ** Hardworking Lynn that painted all the blackboard frames and doors. *
* Dr Liu, principal of Dr School also took part. He always said duno how to repay, but all of us know well that we are building His kingdom. This mission is for Him. May His blessing be poured abundantly to every corner of the school and every single wonderful kid. *

* Glen (Australia) is a very nice guy who brought us lotsa laughters. He supervised the work so that would be able to finish on time. *
* Aaron and Bev wore the specs that were to protect our eyes during school maintenance. *









* Isaac them went to a boarding school that the management strictly diciplines the problematic teenagers. They had English conversation in that 2 days to know the stories behind them which led my teamates to tears. *
* Pain behind the smile.No one knows, but their presence brought sparkles of hope in their life. *


* Pastor David & John (England) *
* Our Malaysia Team leader, Isaac Siow *


* John and Ros (Australia) were teaching them English. *

* Lunch Time at boarding school *

* The hostel at Dr School * Rundown area, but ChinaHeart International sponsored the heating system for the children so that they can focus in their studies during winter. *
* the kitchen of the hostel *

* Their smiles looked so innocent and sweet. *



* We mingled with the kids at Dr School.Although they are having spring summer break now, but they were not reluctant to back to school for extra class. I really amazed their spirit of gaining knowledge at such downtown area. *
* Aaron bought big watermelons for us to prevent sun stroke. *

* Ros & SooYing *