♬ St^rry St^rry mOm3nts ♫ ♪

起点。。

2011-11-11T02:32:00.000+04:00

2011-11-03T03:38:00.009+04:00

你想念的人
如果那个人值得
不管你怎么去追逐
你也值得让人尊重
至少那也属于你的梦想
很多事情当你已经看见失败了
或许是能减少些失败带来的痛苦
却有多少剔透的明亮良心
擦得净那肮脏的眼膜
总是藏躲在人群身后
道德搞不清楚　
能不能狠狠为自己活一次

那年都还小好小
划过不少比你大一圈的景
听过那段可悲但挺有意思的话
“卑鄙是卑鄙的人的通行证，
高尚是高尚的人的墓铭碑。”
每每耳闻目视不堪的
重温这大时代的冷暖
好比好多人都来的幸福了
可人生总有遗憾回顾
温习着珍惜这简单的幸福

“我们自愿结为夫妻，从今天开始，我们将共同肩负起婚姻赋予我们的责任和义务：上孝父母，下教子女，互敬互爱，互信互勉，互谅互让，相濡以沫，钟爱一生!”
“今后，无论顺境还是逆境，无论富有还是贫穷，无论健康还是疾病，无论青春还是年老，我们都风雨同舟，患难与共，同甘共苦，成为终生的伴侣!”

痴等结婚那刻神圣的宣誓言
那简单字眼包藏着的承诺
一夜间变像泼出去的黑水
嘴角上扬的　抹去透彻的泪水
转身对身后的宝宝说
待会儿我们等爸爸回来哦
等待复等待明日何其多
上一代老奶奶都说着我们的故事
自来水爱情好少了
双目盈眶又再意味着
快熟面年代让她更缅怀过去

到底冲破良心的底线
这一代的悲剧延续到下一代
称此种树得树
亲手叫后人续耕田
收到的苦果叫是自找遗憾。
或许狠心自私得到霎那的甜蜜
失去的好多好多却自欺
等到刺心夜晚的来临　
也许安慰鼓励自己
人生还是这么的美好的
听闻夕阳无限好只是近黄昏
流逝安全感迟早好景不常在
谁也没有资格决定谁的人生
但筹码越大就得做好失去一切的准备
或许没有这么一天
此刻不也是这么七上八下着

如果爱一个人
要赔上漫长的上半辈子
那你还敢爱吗
有一种爱叫做放手
时间是苦不堪言
打赢消耗战
征服不羁的野爱
勇敢的ＳＨＥＲＯ
不谓伟大不畏什么
恸哭哀嚎必然抑或长智慧了
热心的肩膀谁都想借
就盼这份大爱让你动心
纷扰就像下场大雨
离开似乎给自己一个重新机会
什么都那么好更值得再等待
等待更好的出现了
因为你真的值得
幸福也比昨天离你，更近了。

－一定要幸福哦！*^-^*－
。。最－－关心，希望，知心，想给予所有祝福的人－－。。

2011-11-02T17:59:00.006+04:00

我等待
你等待
他等待
她等待

等待春天。
等待生日。
等待中獎。
等待新聞。
等待歡樂。
等待花開。
等待雨停。
等待落日，
等待掌聲。
等待慈悲。
等待鐘響。
等待車來。
等待改革。
等待假期。
等待夢醒。
等待緣分。
等待幸運。
等待天使
也等待魔鬼。
我等待“等待”。

有人跟我说，
不是很看的懂我写什么。。
有时我太容易写我喜欢写的东西。。
忘了自己该写些白话点的较为知音共鸣
我看见好多人等待
当某个夜晚久违的朋友问我
“你知道我们生活的意义是什么，你知道吗？”
我只淡淡的说“每个人的意义不一样，在寻找中……”

今天了解的这件事
让我明白的不是“我早就猜到会是这样”
我并不自豪这所谓的第六感或是先见之明

很多时候我们都一直在勇敢梦想着自己的意义
努力生活着努力做好每一件事同时在等待自己想要的

当你梦想的是快要成真时

那件喜事　家事，朋友事

学业，爱情　还是事业

每一小步跨越　

跌倒到痛

痛到用尽勇气爬起

那都不是最难的

最可怕的是，

发现一路花上一整天上天堂之旅

走错到了寸土不生的落后乡村
自欺安慰自己　

反正成功本来就不是一条直路

那何苦钻牛角尖

死死坚持往前走到一条不归路

退后很难

道歉有时候也很难
有谁　活下来没有痛苦过

人生就要给自己一条退路

生命何谓短暂

在乎曾经璀璨过

如果是抱着这样的心里

那别让自己毫无退路可循

转个身　

那群永远爱你的家人

爱你的朋友亲戚们

为了自己真正的幸福　

有什么事值得让自己一错再错

等待的确好折磨

耗散那阳光迷人的笑容

却遮不掉无人深夜寂寞的叮咛

晃了半个辈子

值得为一个决定

放弃后面离你更靠近的梦想吗

有时候失败就像一只大恶魔

就要考验你的坚定

如果你毅然放弃了《等待》

你就真的输了输给了自己

输给了属于成功的大恶魔

因为成功与幸福

都想你以后深深体会　

什么叫做坚持的　得来不易

2011-10-29T20:57:00.002+04:00

《寒夜有懷》

夜寒漏永千門靜，破夢鐘聲度花影。

夢想回思憶最真，那堪夢短難常親。

兀坐誰教夢更添，起步修廊風動簾。

可憐兩地隔吳越，此情惟付天邊月。

暗帘竹下月色洒，寂吟前世雍正集，
此景霎时叹故人，心无故人往日情。

那永远的26日-盼望着《五年來的早晨》的到来

2011-10-26T00:44:00.000+04:00

給十五歲的你

2011-10-24T23:04:00.001+04:00

《天使為甚麼能夠飛》

2011-10-24T21:48:00.002+04:00

2011-10-24T16:03:00.002+04:00

你发现了吗？
你的手机里面号码越来越多，
可以拨通的却越来越少。
某些时候，
你拨通了，
电话那头却响起：“您拨打的用户已停机”。
然后你发现，
人与人的关系就像那几串数字，

可以深刻记起，

也可以随时被遗忘了……

铁盒 Locked Heart

2011-10-22T23:57:00.001+04:00

2011-10-22T15:04:00.004+04:00

忙碌是一种幸福，
让我们没时间体会痛苦；
奔波是一种快乐，
让我们真实的感受生活；
疲惫是一种享受，
让我们无暇空虚。

A very high degree of wisdom.
i am far from that mental freedom.
Seeking the extraordinary in the ordinary HE,SHE,IT.

2011-10-22T13:35:00.004+04:00

凡事包容，bears all things,
凡事相信，believes all things,
凡事盼望， hopes all things,
凡事忍耐。 endures all things.
(林前13章7節) 1 Corinthians 13:7

Sleeping 10 hours and woke up in late morning.
The feeling was a Wow, life is so blissful.
This's my 1st Saturday that could get up late.
Finished my O&G class for this semester,
i know there're still tremendously alot for me to learn.
The attitude of picking bone in egg isn't my style.
So, retaining the knowledge in myself is my responsibility.
The great feeling was a little screwed up by some small house matter.
Living together,needs effort to practice the 4 verses of the above.
i hope there'll be more transparency as a part of the family.
i do want to enjoy more the H.O.M.E feeling,
i think everyone wants to,
so really hope no hard feeling among the M5.
It's a part of learning too.
Enjoy the remaining days in Moscow.
It will be a part of our memory
This life as a medical student
even in hell-ed HO life...
Love Home. Love Moscow.Love Life.

2011-10-21T22:08:00.005+04:00

有人说：
女人，小时候有爸爸疼，长大了有老公疼，老了有儿子疼。
男人，小时候听妈妈的话，长大了听老婆的话，老了听女儿的话。

生活说话须要智慧。
不管怎样的多疲惫。
看到这张可爱照片。
心情都变漂亮起来。
放眼看美丽新世界，
重新要再出发咯~‎\(◕‿◕)/

p/s:下星期考眼科，眼睛和脑袋要争气啊！加油~

I want my life to be colourful ♥

2011-10-21T22:04:00.003+04:00

When things in your life seem, almost too much to handle,
When 24 Hours in a day is not enough,
Remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his philosophy class
and had some items in front of him.
When the class began, wordlessly,
He picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar
And proceeded to fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students, if the jar was full.
They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured
them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly.
The pebbles rolled into the open Areas between the golf balls.

He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar.
Of course, the sand filled up everything else.
He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous 'yes.'

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively
filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.

'Now,' said the professor, as the laughter subsided,
'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.
The golf balls are the important things - family,
children, health, Friends, and Favorite passions –
Things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, Your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, house, and car.

The sand is everything else --The small stuff.

'If you put the sand into the jar first,' He continued,
there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life.

If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff,
You will never have room for the things that are important to you.

So...

Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.
Play With your children.
Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your partner out to dinner.

There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal.

'Take care of the golf balls first --
The things that really matter.
Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented.

The professor smiled
'I'm glad you asked'.

It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem,
There’s always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.'

2011-10-20T22:05:00.002+04:00

每一个女孩

不管到了几岁

心中都有一份憧憬

只是埋藏得越来越深

微微随着秋季离开

真心话总是大冒险的

谢了的绿橙丹枫树

谢了的褐黄梧桐叶

你,感受那份寒意了吗…… =)

-续上则读后感。-

2011-10-20T21:35:00.002+04:00

【 Marriage 】
「When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes..

Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife’s divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me… she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office…. jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind…I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won’t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I’ll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead. My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push through with the divorce.
— At least, in the eyes of our son — I’m a loving husband...

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves.

So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

Many of life’s failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.. ...」

2011-10-20T20:40:00.002+04:00

做人，须经得起风雨；
学习，要耐得住寂寞；
恋爱，要经得起考验；
成长，要靠逐步积累；
成功，要受得了煎熬；
婚姻，要懂得维护；
幸福，要懂得珍惜；
烦恼，要学会忘记 ♥

2011-10-18T23:31:00.007+04:00

童年回忆里

一年四季的节日中

特别钟爱圣诞节

每每这一天的到来

感觉深刻

是个彼此，祝福的日子。

还有妈妈的温馨“火鸡特大餐”

小时候就这样以为着

母鸡与火鸡是没差啊

哈哈哈哈哈哈

那棵从小到大，
妈妈倾爱的圣诞树

在爸爸反派声浪下
每年我们一起幻想它存在那角

深埋记忆里怀念它

也许追溯到她的儿时

那是遗憾的补偿

总的来说，是我想妈妈了
那份小康之家的欢与乐

圣诞节，你，
想你了。

2011-10-18T19:55:00.011+04:00

上完妇产科

这五六个小时的课

附加昨夜是上课到晚上七点多到家
再极不适腰酸背痛
做功课加细读资料赶报告
一整天虽然好累

亲睹了个麟儿诞生

到这个有笑有泪的世界

大家喜悦地等待
她用嚎啕大哭来宣告着
“我哭着到来，希望用我的一生去感受而笑着离开”

一身湿滑滑白蓝色的肌肤
经爱心爆满的医护人员的细心

小王子超粉红的可爱至极

生命就是如此奥妙再让我多了一份体会

好久没有这样的心情

是开心的，有所领悟的。
生日只是年龄象征
发挥生命力才是年轻的正意。

让这短暂的一生留下精彩的寓言书

一切那么的美好因为乌云已过
纵然仍有许多小石头阻挡着前进，
但我愿意面对失败，
谢谢你一言惊醒梦中人
让我回首到底怎么来到这儿
希望你，能够昂首熬过去这艰难的实习日子
祝福你。

五点黄昏，

夕阳红霞折光下

一个人走在人往的大街上
顿然真的无虑一身轻

享受那份当个学生的快乐。

2011-10-15T21:00:00.000+04:00

难过的时候猛吃东西不是没有道理，

因为胃和心的距离很近，

当你吃饱了的时候，

暖暖的胃会挤占心脏的位置，

这样心里就不会觉得那么冷清，

那么空落落。

2011-10-13T19:51:00.009+04:00

【心理技巧】
1. 可以相信别人，但不可以指望别人；2. 不要拒绝善意，不要停止微笑；3. 错误可以犯，但不可以重复犯；4. 批评一定要接受，辱侮绝对不能接受。5.该说的要说，该哑的要哑，是一种聪明；7. 该干的要干，该退的要退，是一种睿智；8. 该显的要显，该藏的要藏，是一种境界。

从避风港出来这个大染缸，
无知天真早已不断在被抹煞着。。
慢慢的才能看透，
学到无需多虑而是认真活着
强势被拉进这黑白漩涡中兢兢抓紧坚持
是真难矣，红尘也。

惟有心境，越渴望那种平静。

2011-10-13T19:47:00.000+04:00

拍拖就应该经历一下异地恋。
体会一下欣喜忧愁无从分享，
欢笑落泪不能拥抱。
隔着屏幕隔着电话隔着书信联系，
直到你几乎疯狂。
学会拒绝诱惑，
学会处理一个人的时间，
学会照顾自己……
也只有这样，在下一个拥抱，
乃至白头偕老，你才会感恩，
异地恋不仅是考验着对方的耐心，
更是考验了自己的认真。

Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated.

2011-10-11T17:49:00.001+04:00

Jesus: Hello. Did you call me?

Man: Called you? No. Who is this?

Jesus: This is Jesus. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will chat.

Man: I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now. I am in the midst of something.

Jesus: What are you busy at? Ants are busy too.

Man: Don’t know. But I can’t find free time. Life has become hectic. It’s rush hour all the time.

Jesus: Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.

Man: I understand. But I still can’t figure out. By the way, I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.

Jesus: Well I wanted to resolve your fight for time, by giving you some clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the medium you are comfortable with.

Man: Tell me, why has life become complicated now?

Jesus: Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated.

Man: why are we then constantly unhappy?

Jesus: Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your habit. That’s why you are not happy.

Man: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?

Jesus: Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.

Man: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty.

Jesus: Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.

Man: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?

Jesus: Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don’t suffer. With that experience their life become better not bitter.

Man: You mean to say such experience is useful?

Jesus: Yes. In every term, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.

Man: But still, why should we go through such tests? Why can’t we be free from problems?

Jesus: Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons (to) Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you are free from problems.

Man: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don’t know where we are heading.

Jesus: If you look outside you will not know where you are heading. Look inside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.

Man: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving in the right direction. What should I do?

Jesus: Success is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.

Man: In tough times, how do you stay motivated?

Jesus: Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.

Man: What surprises you about people?

Jesus: When they suffer they ask, “why me? When they prosper, they never ask “Why me” Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.

Man: Sometimes I ask, who I am, why am I here. I can’t get the answer.

Jesus: Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be. Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery but a process of creation.

Man: How can I get the best out of life?

Jesus: Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear.

Man: One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.

Jesus: There are no unanswered prayers. At times the answer is NO.

Man: Thank you for this wonderful chat. I am so happy to start the day with a new sense of inspiration.

Jesus: Well. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don’t believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve not a problem to resolve. Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live.

Man: Thank you so much.

Jesus: You are always welcome. Have a good day my friend.

‎" Always remember, God's Word is the Word for YOU ".

爸爸妈妈的《谎言》-警醒着……

2011-10-10T20:23:00.005+04:00

当你喝着可口的饮料时、

请想想爸爸妈妈喝的是什么。

当你穿着昂贵的衣服时、

请想想爸爸妈妈穿的是什么。

当你肆无忌惮花钱时、

请想想爸爸妈妈买东西砍价的样子。

爸爸妈妈为了我们付出了多少？

流了多少汗、为的只是让我们过的更好。

我们所拥有的一切都是爸爸妈妈的双手换来的、

无论是个在什么背景努力的爸爸妈妈、

请爱自己爸爸妈妈。。。

2011-10-09T15:54:00.002+04:00

知足常乐，我总是知道。
可是必要时我却忘记了
真的真的很抱歉
每个人都知道的大道理
总需要社会不同的剧本去实践
乐观乐观更乐观
当想起还有许多人的不幸
又何须耿耿于心这小情绪
前进前进再前进
远大的梦想在前面。。
她，想通了又回来咯　
笑一笑，没甚么过不了。＝）

2011-10-06T22:20:00.002+04:00

There's an old saying that goes, "When you enter the world, you cry and the world rejoices. Live your life so that when you leave the world, you rejoice and the world cries".
I think that happened today.
Rest in peace, Steve Jobs.

心安，黯然一笑

2011-09-28T23:04:00.003+04:00

叹又何谓
诉也无谓
既无所谓
别伤脾胃
远只在于……
思道为她不解
亦是在下活得太傻了
凡是，只求心安理得。

错了

2011-09-25T22:18:00.002+04:00

当你发现曾做错了决定
伤害或大亦小
因人而异也……
当下的感受，是难受的。
连累了别人，更是不好过。。
发现自己，原来如此不成熟。。
很痛，也许关心为自己付出那个的心更痛。。
旁敲下让我再长大了一点点……
就像八谷粥里那缺一不可的配料，
每一点都是我再努力让思涯更完整中。。。
我记得，那个痛。。
未来再维艰亦然走得更谨慎。。

2011-04-12T05:29:00.002+04:00

六个小时后
今天又是全新的一天
不害怕，
听过一句话，坚持比努力可怕！
不开心会过去
累了也能从新出发
相信很快就熬过去的！
大大声地拍个手掌心，
加油！

2011-04-11T21:41:00.002+04:00

不知道从几时开始
每天上学和生活里都能听见负面的话
满满的课和考试塞满了白天
满满的字和咖啡陪伴着夜晚
只想找个地方。。
为什么每天都好累。。
好累。。。今天。。好累。。

随《变》

2011-01-15T03:09:00.000+03:00

一个老掉牙的字眼，
加上老掉牙的语气
是否都爱着挑战着不可能？
“你变了”这个东西，
对塌了的泥巴说只是种免疫启动
但对时时上进的人来说却是一种赞美心灵

自行定义的
也会是一厢情愿
造成今天的“你变了”
变得再多，其实只是被挑战
不负得所有的不单纯所抗议

你认为你觉得你想着
我不想我不知我不要
伤害已成选择忘掉吧
不是装好人只是真的就算了吧

Bruno Mars -♥ Just the Way You Are ♥ Violin Remix

2010-12-03T01:11:00.000+03:00

Glee Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are by J Rice & Jason Chen)

2010-11-28T13:59:00.000+03:00

Tong Hua (童话) Cover - English/Chinese + Violin/Trumpet by Jason Chen & J...

2010-11-28T13:54:00.000+03:00

✿ Lesson behind medical lesson ✿

2010-11-27T14:21:00.008+03:00

"Yeeiiieeee~~~"
Is this your 1st respond? or "wow.."

U might find this disgusting in the 1st sight, but it could be the lack of noticing this on our beloved parents's leg too.

Sounds complicated? haha... Time flies, our parents are aging yet still working outside day and night. The sacrifices of a housewives are significant too. Prolonged standing for a Chao Kuey Tiao seller or sitting in office is one of the common causes of this enlarged and superficial swelling vessel on one's leg.

This is simply just reminded me the sign of aging of parents and their sacrifices.

So, friends, be thankful and grateful if u are going back this weekend ,or dont be shy, give a big warm hug anytime whenever you see them because we duno when will be going home next time as we alwiz mention we are busy too. =p

Not forget for those who are interested,

Symptoms may include:

color changes in the skin
sores on the legs
rash
sensations in the legs, such as a heavy feeling, burning, and/or aching

✿ Be patience when they are complaining ✿

Severe varicose veins may eventually produce long-term mild swelling that can result in more serious skin and tissue problems, such as ulcers and nonhealing sores.

Varicose veins are veins that have become enlarged and twisted. While varicose veins are primarily found in the leg, they can occur elsewhere.

Varicose veins are distinguishable from reticular veins (blue veins) and telangiectasias (spider veins) by the location and size of the veins.

NO misunderstanding! :D

2010-10-28T02:58:00.007+04:00

I really hate misunderstanding...
Thiking too much (human nature) contributes in this issue too..
That's why love to make things clear before the day is ended ..

thou sometime is quite hard due to time factor, human factors ,... etc

In overall, are beyond our ability sometimes..
apparently we cant expect everyone to understand us..

The saddest thing is the one u care dont understand u..haha..

Pathetic~
And, i noe ..really for sure, could not cling well wif certain person from the beginning,

or in some matters, it reali cant work till the end..

That is so called "normal fren" or may be "hi- and bye-" people...

The feeling of being misunderstood is killing.. Nid to breathe harder..

Maybe.. should revalue this matter to gain my smiles back.. Haha...

Starting my day off wif more patience can help to be more considerate~ logically..
Hope we can end our each day wif good feeling towards all thing without complicated misunderstanding .. Simple enough~ :)

Refreshed

2010-10-13T02:02:00.003+04:00

Missing sunny autumn
(might be snowing todae ~.~)

It has been sometime never write down words bout my days... 2 year had passed, and summer too. Is officially 3rd year now.. the hectic new time table with about 8 subjects... very often caused the feeling of behind the schedule or rushing to catch the train.

Definitely, diff kind of thoughts developed and encouragements are needed. :) Indeed is hard to move on especially when more than one exam comes and pharmacology cycle is running every week, but i strongly believe is easier if we all move on with supporting each other, ie, waking up lynn or vice versa, to study after sleeping 3 or 4 hours.. Haha... thou we might have negative emotion but we know in our heart that this is our 3rd year life.. Don blame each other la... haha....

Resurrecting this blog not only coz of answering the questions of few friends...letting them to know my recent life and condition, and also after each tired day, i reli feel tired, exhausted and might have lotsa thought but hardly can share... and not forget time zone factor.. Anyway, Hope i can arrange time more wisely to continue this blogging... thou sometimes i tink is wasting time. Hahaha.... JIAYOU Maine~ :)

Vice-versa Theory

2010-05-19T17:21:00.006+04:00

My father alwiz said insistence & stuborness is just a line of difference.
My roomate said my thinking of the simplest is alwiz the most complex.
God said the faith without an action is death.

Realised that a lot of things are simply repeating as its own cycle, which men take it right when they are told inapparently, but make it wrong when they did it unintentional, or might not..
How much we do is really not be measured by ourselves.. but by the recipient and God who sees, feels and touches.. you can only stopped when you are tired of giving.. but i bet u will surely not when you really love that things or person, like showering my mum wif my love or watering my house plants which my siblings took effort and time that every evening. My parents and best frens do feel unpleasant when thing turns wrong, but they love me n understand me well enough till they know which and what work the best in me, making me who i am todae, Thanks so much for such a great blessing of having my lovely parents n frens.. Os, kaenice, joyce, .... frens in all diff countries, not forget Moscow frens..

i doubt i wont hurt them in my life, but i think the most i might disappoint them in a way.. probably :) but i hope it won't happen. Therefore, i will use the best way as i think to love them, might be not sumthg they want.. like my yougest sister doesn't like kissing from us.. This is the world that often has "vice-versa'' theory, nothing is actually can be standardized. The word ''standard'' is just a boundary of normal, but even human body cant remain 37*C every minutes.. Hahaha....

In the end, not all standard ways suit all, not all our ways suit our beloved ones around us.. even a stranger? :P Using a more comfortable way to treat each other can balance the relationship & enlighten each other.. We use more energy to spoil up other's emotion, unless you want a diet, but this is the most unhealthy one *wink* Remember God's commandment, when we are being folding into more Christ-like, shouldnt we use the commandment to treat everyone? :D

他和她说，她跟他说

2010-03-23T13:16:00.009+03:00

1.莎士比亚说:
再好的东西，都有失去的一天。
再深的记忆，也有淡忘的一天。
再爱的人，也有远走的一天。
再美的梦，也有苏醒的一天。
该放弃的决不挽留。
该珍惜的决不放手，分手后不可以做朋友，因为彼此伤害过

！
也不可以做敌人，因为彼此深爱过。

2.几米说:
当你喜欢我的时候，我不喜欢你，
当你爱上我的时候，我喜欢上你，
当你离开我的时候，我却爱上你，
是你走得太快，还是我跟不上你的脚步,
我们错过了诺亚方舟，错过了泰坦尼克号，
错过了一切的惊险与不惊险，我们还要继续错过。
我不了解我的寂寞来自何方，但我真的感到寂寞。
你也寂寞，世界上每个人都寂寞，只是大家的寂寞都不同吧。

3.刘心武说:
不要指望，麻雀会飞得很高。
高处的天空，那是鹰的领地。
麻雀如果摆正了自己的位置，它照样会过得很幸福！

4.亦舒说:
人们日常所犯最大的错误，是对陌生人太客气，而对亲密的人太苛刻，
把这个坏习惯改过来，天下太平。

5.郭敬明说:
我终于发现自己看人的眼光太过简单，我从来没有去想面具下面是一张怎样的面容，
我总是直接把面具当做面孔来对待，却忘记了笑脸面具下往往都是一张流着泪的脸。

6.张小娴说:
爱，从来就是一件千回百转的事。
不曾被离弃，不曾受伤害，怎懂得爱人？

7.韩寒说:
再累再苦就当自己是二百五再难再险就当自己是二皮脸。

8.安妮宝贝说:
当一个女子在看天空的时候，她并不想寻找什么。
她只是寂寞。

9.遇见平凡说:
缘分像一本书。
翻的不经意会错过童话读得太认真又会流干眼泪。

10.刘心武说:
对不起是一种真诚，没关系是一种风度。
如果你付出了真诚，却得不到风度，那只能说明对方的无知与粗俗！

11.亦舒说:
无论怎么样，一个人借故堕落总是不值得原谅的，越是没有人爱，越要爱自己。

12.刘心武说:
与其讨好别人，不如武装自己；
与其逃避现实，不如笑对人生；
与其听风听雨，不如昂首出击！

13.张爱玲说:
娶了红玫瑰，久而久之，红玫瑰就变成了墙上的一抹蚊子血，白玫瑰还是“床前明月光”；
娶了白玫瑰，白玫瑰就是衣服上的一粒饭渣子，红的还是心口上的一颗朱砂痣。

14.三毛说:
一个朋友很好，两个朋友就多了一点，三个朋友就未免太多了。
知音，能有一个已经很好了，不必太多，
如果实在没有，还有自己，好好对待自己，跟自己相处，也是一个朋友...

15.雪小禅说:
我以为终有一天，我会彻底将爱情忘记，将你忘记，
可是，忽然有一天，我听到了一首旧歌，我的眼泪就下来了，
因为这首歌，我们一起听过。

16.郭敖说:
我们始终都在练习微笑，终于变成不敢哭的人。

17.三毛说:
不要害怕拒绝他人，如果自己的理由出于正当。
当一个人开口提出要求的时候，他的心里根本预备好了两种答案。
所以，给他任何一个其中的答案，都是意料中的。

18.梓色心晴说:
男人哭了，是因为他真的爱了。
女人哭了，是因为她真得放弃了。

19.玄漪说:
能够说出的委屈，便不算委屈；
能够抢走的爱人，便不算爱人。

20.张爱玲说:
爱情本来并不复杂，来来去去不过三个字，
不是我爱你、我恨你，
便是算了吧、你好吗、对不起。

21.马云说:
晚上想想千条路，早上醒来走原路。

22.饶雪漫说:
这个世界欺骗了我，我必须给与还击，我不会放掉任何一丁点儿属于我的幸福，
哪怕付出的代价是从此坠入地狱，我也在所不惜。

23.郭敖说:
每个人一生之中心里总会藏着一个人，也许这个人永远都不会知道，
尽管如此，这个人始终都无法被谁所替代。
而那个人就像一个永远无法愈合的伤疤，
无论在什么时候，只要被提起，或者轻轻的一碰，就会隐隐作痛。

24.GARVEN说:
话是人说的，屁也是人放的，说话和放屁一样，都是一口气而已。

25.三毛说:
某些人的爱情，只是一种“当时的情绪”。
如果对方错将这份情绪当做长远的爱情，是本身的幼稚。

26.张小娴说:
如果没法忘记他，就不要忘记好了。
真正的忘记，是不需要努力的。

27.人非草木说:
再丑的人也能结婚，再美的人也会单身！

28.张爱玲说:
因为爱过，所以慈悲；
因为懂得，所以宽容。

ChinaHeart International

2010-03-19T15:20:00.000+03:00

China Heart International

James 1:27

Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this : to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world.
Stay blessed! =)

Summer Mission Trip to China

2010-03-19T15:08:00.001+03:00

chinaheart mercy

2010-03-19T15:02:00.000+03:00

china heart mercy

Though it was last summer, but it just seems like last weekend..
Take few minutes to experience the other corner of the world...
who simply just need your care, love and attention...
Stay blessed ^-^

坚持的误会

2010-03-16T17:52:00.006+03:00

已经有一段时间没写网记了..
虽然功课繁忙, 脑袋里仍然有很多东西闪闪而过..
想得最多的不是该怎么赶走懒惰虫之外就是数数几时可以回大马的家呢..
哈哈..

我当然很喜欢这里的朋友,只是... ...
听说"家是避风港"吧.. 遇到问题难免会沮丧.. 加上那爱撑的个性..
说的好听点就是不喜欢麻烦身边的人.;
心情的颜色却是善变的..因为还有一个特长就是很会安慰自己..
哈哈... 所以在俄罗斯已经第二年了生活上其实已经能迎刃而解了...
感谢**.. ^-^

之前有差不多一个星期都肚子不舒服又失眠的..
还蛮压力的..自然而然就更想家啦..呵呵...不知是不是幸好呢。。
那一个瞬间有个网上朋友的一句话,
像曾经听过Shuzba的分享一样..
他给的及时一个出现和关心,那乌云就适当的过去了..
还有就是我的室友啦..哈~有她,我的思念和眼泪才徐徐停止..
适时的一个拥抱,回到书桌前的力量就回来啦..呵呵...
也许有时侯是乱七八糟的气氛,
我想从中我们都在彼此学习和包容..是一个彼此给予机会...

而朋友们,
也谢谢你们给我的机会去学习怎么做你称职的朋友和那份包容;
那你们心里面曾有疙瘩的那个朋友,
何不妨再一试,
或许当初看见的是误会,
最重要的是,是否曾经用心去了解这位被误会判了死刑的朋友??
给每一个人赦免的机会..
别让自己也做了一个跟着世俗眼光的人o0O.... ^-^

Amazing Snow White

2010-03-02T00:51:00.004+03:00

View outside my window in the morning

WOw.. Surprisingly to see them during winter ..

It's hardly to see this ..

Spring is coming. June is coming. My summer hol is coming. HAhaha... ( Homesick Syndrome )

ChinaHeart Children

2010-02-23T01:02:00.000+03:00

ChinaHeart Children

一起走过的日子- Day 3 officially ^-^

2010-02-16T00:41:00.009+03:00

1st 2 days in Riga, Latvia. ( wil be continued =D )

3rd day - we were busy settling transportation and hostel stuff.. End up wif a satisfying and filling Fish and Chips at Northfield which is nearby our hostel.

4th day after we reached London, we decided to start of our sweet Euro trip wif getting up to a HOP on HOP off bus tour to go all tourist spots over London .. Let's see.. ^-^

London eyes.. i missed it ~.~
Seeking for this typical phone booth for times.. haha.. finally..

Hop on Hop off Bus Tour introduced special Fish and Chips .. YUMMY yummy..
Changing of Guard in London- For Royal Families

In London street gallery ... TOILET.. hahah.. big big mirror ~
Looked pretty and nice picture.. rite..Actually was superd cold and windy..Great posers..Lol..
See.. WINDYyyyyyy...~~~ fronzen .... -.-
Brandon , Kelvin , Saac & Lynn

Saac Bao bao...

Charis dear ..

Lynn Lynn darling ..
Traufagar Square

Beside me ..

2010-02-16T00:07:00.007+03:00

"Arise, shine, for your light has come, and the glory of the Lord rises upon you" (Isaiah 60:1, NIV)

I believe that in the coming decade God wants to exceed your expectations! He has amazing things stored up for you. He'll take you places that you've never dreamed and give you breaks that seemed impossible. His glory is rising upon His people. Things are going to fall into place so that you can accomplish what God has placed in your heart. Even the hidden dreams that you've given up on, God has not given up on. He is going to do exceedingly abundantly above and beyond all you could ask, think, or imagine! Your mind may try to talk you out of it, but if you'll listen with your heart, it will resonate on the inside of you. Don't let discouragement hold you back or keep you down. It's time for you to arise. It's time for you to shine. Let that sink down into your spirit today because it's time for you to receive every spiritual blessing and move forward in the destiny He has prepared for you!..

THanks for all wonderful smiles and tears after He found me..
The growth that i experienced is amazing and unbelievable..
BUT, He is , He is there who makes miracles..
A new ME.. to adapting too..
.. Time ..

2009-11-22T16:46:00.002+03:00

是漠不关心
还是想置之事外
不会是本衷
本是善言
末为义尽
其实只是更颤抖
就让冰山保有着冷漠……

一次次的热潮
让再踏出每一步都更深思熟虑
对不起没有了地位
氧化了放弃让言字畅流
四个季节的气息里
都不会再被尬住了吧
随心所欲的也能回家……

细水长流

2009-11-22T01:01:00.005+03:00

淅沥淅沥
轻轻听
喜欢幻想这样的声音
流水一流至海
声音就没了

尽头不知在哪
从一而终就是这样
茫茫人海中
不知结果里的涩
却能预知这是蜜甜莲子
一凭那份直觉。

等待，璧合这样的种子
会在那细水长流中
开花结果

Beautiful sky

2009-11-12T01:31:00.004+03:00

What is the colour of your sky todae?
i love white, so it represents great day
i love blue too, so it represents day with hope
A blueish white sky is the best day...

Sunny day does not last long..
it comes with black day, pink day and .... etc..

What if going to a very very very far far farrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr place away in the next second?
Not a -ve thinking, but i would wonder this question most of the time..
Not afraid.. but feel that still have alot of plans to be done and yet lots of things to be rectified..
A lot of people haven met yet ..

The most important thing is.. how to make TODAY is worth of it?

When it comes to going after the thing we love in life, do try not giving NO as answer ^-^
Cherish ice-cream moment, too. =P

Winter's Precursor

2009-10-27T23:57:00.002+03:00

October ..
Autumn..
Maple leaves..
Rainy days..

symbols of this season..
the precursors of winter..
day light saving has started,
it means it is officially 5 hours earlier in Russia compared to Malaysia
No longer 4 hours..
Longer night..beauty sleep could be extended
A loud hooray could be listened in every heart..

Everyday,
before heading to class,
another thing dat hav to make sure to bring is rainbrella~^^
quite annoying as it rains almost everyday..
is my 2nd year here..
i feel quite use to..
jus dat i hate to see my muddy beloved Converse
Last saturdae, was a complicated day..
spent quite long time to study & prepare Histo..
i guess i cud score better if it is only theory without identifying slides
Haha.. Dreaming again Piscesian.. but was contented to the outcome
i feel that i learn too, and more even during control time..
i learn explaining skill, i learn to be calm and confident..
i learn to be shaped.. i learn to differentiate true and false..
i learn to listen to voice of sincerity.. Exams have becum another platform for me to grow..to challenge myself,to have more motivations,to gain more knowledge to equip a medicine student... How can one give up before trying? how can one give up if only attempts 1-2 times; In fact, Success belongs to those who run to the end of race..

Sleeping time was less than 6 hours for the last few days..but stil went to Big Asan (shopping centre) after histo control in that afternun =( impossible for a piggie wil do so BUT .. i went.. to accompany Lynn to get her dream chair at IKEA since she was the only gal..After waited roughly 1hour for bus, finally we reached home at roughly 9pm.The funny part was we were almost wet becoz a reckless driver splashed up a paddle of water ..We were so tired but we laughed becoz of our unfortunate =.=

Greyish blue sky causes sadness,, loneliness, down, moody..
For no reason, it can make you missing home indirectly..
but, raining washes off all the unhappy and polluted problems..
Really feel that LIFe is good when the environment looks so fresh..
Hope that Spring wil reach SOON..

What is the STOP CODON for winter ? Sob..
What is the START CODON for summer ? Hehe .. =p

Continue physio-ing .. ~.=

Missing Violin, Thinking of Piano

2009-10-20T00:17:00.009+04:00

12.27am
Valynne is sleeping..
A typical piggie like me shud be joining her along making sweety dreams together at this wonderful night..
Haha.. i guess muz be over histo-ing d..
mumbling, thinking.. wondering... instead of reading..

At this moment, i miss my violin..
my life now seems so plain..
i hope by next summer, and every summer can continue learning violin, master it excellently... as well as the theory part.

i wish i can play piano one day..
it may seem is a wildful thought..
is a dream since small..
when my family condition turned better,
i convinced my mum to let my youngest sis to learn PIANO
and plays for me specially at times..
partly it was to fulfill my dream =p
Until my parents were able to support me,
i chose to learn violin when i was in secondary.
The reason was.. it is a classical musical instrument too,
and my mum rejected cello, then ..
it would be very easy to bring my beloved around to anywhere,
and play it anytime ..

p/s : Like valynne, she misses her beloved heavy piano at home.. Haha..

therefore, i saved and spent rm420
for my very 1st classical, typical, wooden violin..
i enjoy a lot when someone plays piano lively,
i think Valynne enjoys too, cos i owiz ask her to play if i discover piano..
Haha.. i never regret learning it..

if i were given a chance again when i am small to learn musical instrument,
i think i might not choose medic but being a musical student, major in piano and violin. Hee hee ... ^-^
i do reali reali reali hope i can finish my violin course and piano.. one day..
Time is not the factor.
wana fulfill it ..no matter when.. =)

一个月两个星期三天四个小时

2009-10-10T16:12:00.006+04:00

没想过越想简单，感觉越累了……
今天看见朋友夹在书中的书签写着 “ Be Positive Always" 。。
“ NEVER MAKE YOURSELF FEEL LESS WORTHY BY COMPARING YOURSELF WITH OTHERS 。”
这样的写着这样一句话……我就算是站着了一个小时多脑袋却好累地在想：“真的是这样吗……” 只怕我会自己跟自己比较多了，挫折来时变得更需要好多好多勇气去跨越……我并不会妒忌，真的不是……嗯……不想造就很差，一个走在病人后的医生……

上了第二年，搬家八次的悲惨局面姑且不提，下一波的暴风考验来的真恰巧……妹妹的健康担心了这么久……其实真的很感谢主这么的恩典，我越担心的事，他越要告诉你担心太多了啦~哈哈……我以为找到固定宿舍是我唯一能帮到家里的方法，兜兜转转我听话的回到他给的摇篮，不飞了，累了。交托在他的孩子们的事总是神秘的被解决掉了，让你不知所措，而觉得真的太神了……家里的灰云过去了……我的彩虹，回来了……^-^

再一波的大雨下来……生理课竟被当了两次……我发现原来我不会说话，那个障碍是掏空信心的来源……第一次时觉得自己很笨，经已会的东西却不知不明不白为舍会写对说错……像乱答似……最近的那一次，感觉错在盲点上被误会没念书似的……才是最伤心。还是我很喜欢的生理课……感觉是糟透了。感谢老师说要给冲劲去念书，我的却是没试过这样气馁。。一刻受不了班上的气氛出去冷静了……想回头将来要做的是个专业医生，要做就要做清楚专业医药知识的……不管老师是多么的没有给分标准，但我在意的不是一时的过关。。不会就念到明白吧……这样，心情似乎平复下来了。不气馁不代表在被人在伤口上撒上盐巴时会坐在那儿无动于衷……也许太在意某一件事所以别人的无心与玩笑变得伤心了……是我太失败了……我是笨，笨得不该念了吗……我也不知道悲观的朋友又到访了……很辛苦但告诉这是要争气的，别弱下去丫……但晚上哭肿了眼睛睡个觉感觉很好了……不要气馁丫！！！下个星期再来……我要的是完成他给的旨意，做好他给我每一个时候的安排……让我坚持下去的泉源……好吗……
还有她，希望她真的别放在心上……不是你的错让我过不了考试，我真的没有怪你……不用太自责了哦……她也加油噢！！！

这一个一个月两个星期三天四个小时的秋天我又是一波三折的过…… 枫叶的季节过得好慢……

退潮

2009-09-02T23:20:00.004+04:00

好像是绝路了
又好像好多人出现了
感谢那些费心援手
好像有永远等不完的等一下
时间的考验在磨心

第二年好像更难走了
却不是先在学业碰钉子
来这儿已经十一天
几乎天天往学校办公楼报到
一天等五六个小时是等闲事了
那超级无敌慢慢慢的速度
快把这一辈子的脾气量用光
仍是一筹莫展的回家
大家无家的感觉很难受
仅能无奈这是我们的选择吗
家里学校一切的一切
烦烦烦烦累累累还能怎么办
哭不能解决的就忍住吧
无能为力只差未绞碎了

。。。

他的承诺需要愫信
再大的问题都有他的天使
再狂的浪花也有他的守护
期待病魔宿舍杂题远远的搁浅
我在等待的
退潮

Trials in life

2009-08-29T20:32:00.007+04:00

Proceeding to my 2nd year in medical field. Sounds everything runs smoothly.

I left Malaysia to Moscow on Monday. Thought staying at Spartive for 2 nights temporary. It costs us 300 Rubbles per night. Mos Lanka ( known as Money Laundry by a creative student ) which as the beneficiary of our university makes us headache deadly. Eventually, we will move to Kusminki which is our permanent hostel on 31st August. Our classes start on 1st September. Sigh~ Means we need to find place to stay for the next 6 days... Thanks alot Alot ALOT to the lovely & helpful seniors in Spartive. Few of our seniors are still holidaying in Malaysia. That's why we could fortunately stay at their rooms. Couldn't imagine what's gona happen without them ... ...

Tomorrow is our big day. We have to shift our stuff from 3 different places to Kusminki. More stories to be continued ~ >.<

The service message for this great Sunday is " Are you ready to travel? '' Thinking deeply. Very often we ask WHY when we face hardship or in an unfavorable situation. Learning to be obedient, just follow the waves of life. His plan is alwiz best for us. He places us in all zones, we mustn't take it for granted sometimes but keep practicing our faith to Him. Learning to acknowledge my weakness, and i want to rectify them, as I have a Holy Father as my friend.Dark, it is so dark that I could not able to recognize which is the true way. I need the brightest light to pull through ...

Thanks .. and thanks .. for yesterday, today, and tomorrow.

Xi'An Part 1 - Smiles

2009-08-18T16:22:00.023+04:00

Smiles can brighten our life. Apparently, the suffering and pain are some of the factors that can make people forget how to smile.. Let's see how do you feel when looking at their smiles but seeing into their eyes ... ...

* with Pastor David & newly painted wall and mullar *
* Lois (UK), Susan (Scotland), Isaac Siow, Chin Ling and I were grouped to renew this stairway *
* ChinLing had a good time with the lovely kids *
* Bev ( Australia) is the long-termed volunteer of China Heart International. She is a former experienced nurse.
* Nicola ( Wales) is a journalist and a part time teacher of a private centre. Her favourite quote is Amazing. Lovely and then give you a wink. She loves kids. *
* Soo Ying worked well with her Red team! " Jiayou .. Jiayou .. " they shouted excitedly.
* Game Time *

* Sea World *
* The other groups cleaned and painted 3 1/2 classrooms and corridors that was rundown in 5 days.
* Calviny *

* Nicola & Bev *

* Praise the Lord that the principal of Dr School requested to join us during the pray and worship. * Right-Barney ( Australia) *

* Mercy Team *
* ChinLing, Lois & I * I washed one part of my hair with carosine b'coz got oil paint on it >.< ** Hardworking Lynn that painted all the blackboard frames and doors. *
* Dr Liu, principal of Dr School also took part. He always said duno how to repay, but all of us know well that we are building His kingdom. This mission is for Him. May His blessing be poured abundantly to every corner of the school and every single wonderful kid. *

* Glen (Australia) is a very nice guy who brought us lotsa laughters. He supervised the work so that would be able to finish on time. *
* Aaron and Bev wore the specs that were to protect our eyes during school maintenance. *

* Isaac them went to a boarding school that the management strictly diciplines the problematic teenagers. They had English conversation in that 2 days to know the stories behind them which led my teamates to tears. *
* Pain behind the smile.No one knows, but their presence brought sparkles of hope in their life. *

* Pastor David & John (England) *
* Our Malaysia Team leader, Isaac Siow *

* John and Ros (Australia) were teaching them English. *

* Lunch Time at boarding school *

* The hostel at Dr School * Rundown area, but ChinaHeart International sponsored the heating system for the children so that they can focus in their studies during winter. *
* the kitchen of the hostel *

* Their smiles looked so innocent and sweet. *

* We mingled with the kids at Dr School.Although they are having spring summer break now, but they were not reluctant to back to school for extra class. I really amazed their spirit of gaining knowledge at such downtown area. *
* Aaron bought big watermelons for us to prevent sun stroke. *

* Ros & SooYing *

Re- Breathe

2009-08-11T19:33:00.014+04:00

I am Back!!! ^-^

Flying from another world back to my own comfort zone..
i do not dare to say it's a renewable trip, but, it did change my perception about life as expected..to a certain extent.

KL,M'sia -- (^.^) -- Xi' An,China -- (~.~) -- KL, M'sia -- (-.-)

Using this icons, i think it can describe my feeling ultimately.
None of us would know the purpose of the great changes happened before our mission ...
Financial issue, H1N1, Family's feeling ... Bringing all this complicated knots up to the plane..
The Lord told me to {Stand Firmly} by using a verse. It sounded simple.That moment just simply depended on me that how i wana practice my faith.Critical moment.I found no one i could share to,not anyone could understand the feeling of bearing Him and keeping in heart,unable to speak up in front of the family.

Yes, I asked You. I surrendered.
If my mum was given the green light from You in all ways, one of my vision '09 will be answered too. Before heading off to Guangzhou, i had lil panic actually,suddenly i felt myself was so lil, why i would be there? The feeling was so odd, same question kept popping out in my mind although i knew the fact confidently that He put me into this 6-members team . Originally 10 of us, until very last minute left with this 5 girls and the only boy who is the leader.

Time flies. Really happy that whole Mercy Team could work up well, with other members from various countries and different backgrounds. The intimate bond that been built up during this short period was so "amazing" ;p ( Nicola's quote), all of us felt like a family. *hugz* It's very hard to put these past 2 weeks in words here.Every single day in mission was a climax.Eventually, 6/8 just reached and put an end to all these.

Finally, back to my blessed homeland.Learning to appreciate to be grateful.Thankful for all the fruits i tasted throughout the journey.I understand, God that is so wise who knows our NEED the most. NEED vs WANT. He measures according to His scale, but He will grant our WANT if it is elevated to the level of NEED.Compared to all my unfortunate friends in China, I realise how fortunate am I. I wouldn't dare to say I will not have extravagant hope anymore in the future, but i will learn to use the blessed experience to comfort myself whenever in a valley.

More touching,funny,heartbreaking,amazing China mission stories will be brought to this blessed space soon. Stay tuned. Haha ..

放手的沉默

2009-07-19T16:17:00.006+04:00

拖延的话语
总是没有勇气的支援
原谅我的柔弱
理由永远那么的深刻
在脑海里宣言着
一万个没有幸福的未来

分秒急促过去
偶而的发呆像坐时光机
穿梭回去看三年前的曾经
冰冻了的心无疑已认定了结果
再努力无奈感动
也无法为这旋律的谱
填上渴望的天长地久

命中注定我相信
太宗爷爷的故事代代流传
晴天阴天雨天都等待
原来不清楚的是我们
感动后不想自私
多个晴天后更明白什么叫勉强
放下的沉默独自找寻那道彩虹

一颗心永远要让很多人住进去
伤害最深的不是很多人
不明白的最终是一个人
明白爱情回馈的进退两难
若想给未来住进去的她一个幸福
我先作最尾端的结局吧
堂皇的理由多美丽的包装
也只是逞强活在这搞不清楚的关系

或许太了解
还是为完美找理由
为这样的柔弱对好多个不起
决定了不走两个人的路
痛苦主宰着没有开始过的友谊
骑士的勇闯精神
很欣赏他答应的专一
很佩服他守护的坚持
却也明白最后不过如此

放下太遥远的起点
不如就保留原来的清楚
珍惜这份礼物
依然是朋友

心情报告 ;p

2009-06-25T20:21:00.010+04:00

回来一个星期了……
好忙好忙好好忙……
感觉自己都好不适应……
一开始就收到很多关心和寒暄的信息……
长大了的感觉突然涌上脑海……
一股悲悲的感觉油然而生……
大家都好远……一起长大的回忆却依稀一幕幕甜甜地上映……
也有种力不从心的感觉……
好多都说“有时间的话大家见个面吧……保持联络哦 ^^ ”
这样的话有时像条绳子绑着之间的通关话语…
可是又好像是客套话……一封信息的结语……
在怎样……人生中就是有千千万万个红尘过客…
为简单的人生做完美做配角。
只因……再热情的心也没办法照顾好不在身边每一个人……
就连在身边的，有时候想珍惜到底也感觉迷茫……
这次回来……有种内疚。
见到他们的忙，我的《度假》似乎是过分，
不是对自己严苛，只是已经21岁了的大女孩，
好像还生活得很童话，
走回来看见他们利用着时间与自己的健康来换我的前途……

一个问题在脑中转：当初我真的又任性了？
我能帮上忙的……唯有尽量不添麻烦，
在店里能帮的其实有限……懊恼~
想找份工作却来不及了，
时间并不够足以被聘请。

祷告被赐予顽强的生命力往前面的路开朗乐观地完成梦想来回报…………

《为什么要当医生？？？》
好多爸妈的朋友和一些许久未见的朋友最近会“访问”的必答题……
若我答：“希望。因为像给不幸福的人希望。”
这样的答案好像很……
那若我说: “志愿。小时候就这样的坚持下来。”
虽然都是我心里的答案………就少一份勇气。

明天就要去KL找妹妹了和她男友的家人们去云顶游乐翻天、
和朋友们姐妹们去为今年的暑假留下棒棒的回忆…………^-^
给自己一个机会，去寻找自己的答案。
一个重心冲刺，让梦想更鲜明。
在把混乱的扭成平行线，就以这趟启程作为开始。
加油！

手中溜走的幸福

2009-06-20T19:10:00.005+04:00

那天在俄罗斯的机场……
通过检查扫描步骤时，
被朋友拿走的随身品中……
再拿回时竟没发现没了它……
在飞机上发现不见了……
睡不着了……
心情不好了
难过丫……
现在已经变麻木了……

这一次回来，像过关斩将地……
不见了最喜欢的音符耳环和S3TO戒指……
找回差点被弄丢的手提电脑……
真是好倒霉哦！！！
对不起丫……
象征友谊的戒指……
也许…
越紧张，越容易失去的……
越不在乎，失去后越难过……
我是幸福的……
失去和拥有是正比吗？

失去了……
我责任最大……
找不回……
我闷闷不乐……
不见哦……
我学习小心……
我不想了……
想念……还是想念……

ThankFUL..

2009-06-20T11:27:00.005+04:00

Moscow >>>.........Flying ........ >>> Malaysia
After 17 hours

It had been quite some time since my last post..
the greatest difference is.. I M IN MALAYSIA currently.. my SUMMER break is on its way now..

Finally, i finished my 1ST year course in Medicine. Hooray!
Finally, it comes to this..
from 14th of june till 17th of june, was busy to prepare my last paper, General chemistry.
I was very tensed up,anxious as i did not want to screw up my last paper.. My seniors were ovelwhelmed in the joy of going back Malaysia that few days. And, some of us did have the thought of giving our best only, could not wait anymore to leave Moscow asap.. Over looking-forward-back Home syndrome. *grin*

So, i prayed hard. Father God, i know i cant staying up whole night to study. i remembered well my lesson during Math paper 2 in STPM that time.
i was blank due to this reason. i sulked. i was sad. i could do one BUT..

So, this time, i asked YOU for ur coaching, guidance.. i took up the risk to study gen chem whole night,tried to remember as much as i could, filled my brain capasity to the max. i love chemistry.
That's why it made me felt i must get a distinction,5! Not for any other reason, i just wana walked wif YOU. really surrendered..Your presence is there all the time. I m grateful that i was able to answer it well with the blessed wisdom. My distinction is to glorify Your name. :-)

I still remember how Holy spirit guided me to Mdm.Yelina, instead of being questioned by Prof. Gregkof. There were only one boy and me only in our group, who were chosen to go to this killer professor.We din know what happened between them. But, he did a bit unfair that giving mark according to who is your teacher apparently. I dunno, sumhow, i was led to Yelina by Holy Spirit, giving me the courage to request to Mdm. Yelina to oral me.At 1st, she asked me to look for my result book. I thanked God when the lab asst found my book was on Prof.Gregkof's table >.<'' It was not that i din prepare, i wasn't so sure about my calculation part,which was actually a theory question on ECG. I knew that will be a high possibility i wil get this topic. >< All these are miracles. i hate Physics to the most since secondary. But now, i love it more. that proved what i wrote on the facebook's shoutout" i wana fall in love wif Mr. Physics.." I am thankful for all my distinctions and 2 excellents. My 2nd year........... Haha... Forget it now. Enjoy my hol ^-^

i reached on 18th of JUne.. my hol wil be ended on 23rd of JUne. i will be flying to China on 23rd of July for my MISIOn Trip. It lasts roughly 2 weeks until 6th of JUne.
http://mfmissions.blogspot.com

Let see... wat's gona happen during this slightly-shorter-than-2-months hol~ Fully utilize it to the Max~~ Hee.. tend to be lazy.. just wana lie on bed and do nothing,which is impossible,and cant afford to do so in MOscow~

Love MalaySia..
Love the food~
Love y Family..
Love my frenssss........ S3T0...
Love my bed...
And, Hate my medic books...
* haven started my revision ;p *
Hope all my Moscow Frens are enjoying tO0o...
Take care and keep in touch.
Misszz 1433 occupants..
Lolzzz...

A reason

2009-05-31T22:36:00.008+04:00

Examination period is truly killing

not just the matter of giving up beauty sleep
sacrificing billions of brain cells
losing out unwanted temper
throwing out alterative heart

Somehow,
having the forced feeling frequently
to succumb to the lecturers...
The meaning of examination
can be altered if one is not in the right attitude
i learned it
Yes, i do not deserve in a way,
He knew the most.
Knowledge in certain fields are under par
Yes. i knew the most.

Of course, i am not proud of it.
and i realise,
He is still always there.
So what,
if i got an undeserved gift,
which is not granted,
and i still question Him in a harsh way
my very 1St time to treat MY FRIEND
i felt i gave my best but,
He harried me continuously.
Then, i m guilty.

Weak soul, feeble sheep,
out of your comfort zone
serving me in a upgraded way.
You are not living in darkness.
If you say you are,
you are lying as you have ME.

I walked out
tears isn't pleased anymore
that seek after is a renewed smile.
Everything is happened for a reason.
His plan. He knew.
You wil know.
All in you if you surrender ALL.

He is a niggard,
feeling lost to give a lil to devil
Please,be patient.
And still to have a pure heart
Mould must always ready to be refined .
for whom had gone through ALL
feel the most of being blessed

We learnt,and are learning
endless chapters
If u don't revise constantly,
gona fail this subject forever
Stand up to be the light and salt.
Do not stop passing up your testimonies
to Him who marks you 24-7.
Falling down, He will send you 1st aid-angels
you may neglect to give a THANKs to them
But, He still there.

You feel the sting of pain.
He feels tons of heartaches N-times
when you put things before His blessings AGAIN
Day by day,
you will be graduated.
Now, collecting all ur passing marks
at the finishing line,
He put you by His side.
YOu smile.
He smile.

Jiayou my CHaderisla.
He is watching over you.
Just go for it.
Accept your blessing
when it's there for you.
Don doubt o0O..
We are alwiz here for you too. ;p
Miss your smile ^-^

想家的味道

2009-05-28T21:20:00.004+04:00

跌倒了
第一件事
想哭

考试熬夜了
第一件事
想回家了

被老师当了
第一件事
想爸妈了
对不起

被人冷落了
第一件事
想家人爱了

端午节来了
第一件事
想粽子了

哈哈……

那是什么味道
开始想去年的夏天
糯米饭。莲子。蘑菇
淡水粽沾沾糖
丫米丫米

好想念外婆哦
属于我的粽子
她疼我的爱
也包进去了
多多的蘑菇
可是
这一刻
味道好模糊了

我又想家了……

祝海外的朋友
端午节快乐

倒数回家

MCQ -

2009-05-27T14:20:00.003+04:00

第261天

选择
好难
我不知道
怎样才是对大家都好

你说人要先为自己想
我知道
没有应该伟大的理由
我却学不会放手

逃避
最后真的面对
却还会伤害人
怎么办
这样的选
真的是最好的？
五年这个我不敢想
但我也好烦
不想最后牺牲的
更多
最后还是我的错
安静习惯了
容忍好像是你的委屈
对不起
不完美的性格
我害怕
也许一年就好
距离就像一片海的远
因为你的期望
你的朋友爱
不想将辜负送给你
最恨的礼物

心如乱茎
找不到
两全其美
已经逃避不了

伸出真心的双手

2009-05-23T22:58:00.001+04:00

春天里雨天
第257天

最近听了一个分享
关于“Reaching Out To The People"

地图里有20-40的框框
又或者40-60的大框
那会是世界第三国家里的世界

穷、脏、饿、血、病、死
这些事
活在幸福的温室的我们
感叹之余
也许怜悯心偶而会作祟
但，总会觉得有心而力不足吧
又或许
或认为自己该珍惜所拥有的
那
你到底可以帮忙谁呢

七年级生
我们总说生命不留白
那真的吃东西只为生存了吗
自以为生存的意义
天父我的朋友
以这个分享
带出了意义的开场白

Young
拥有着13-30的白金框框
我们的学生生活最开心吧……
而这段时间
也是最单纯的人生
你想帮的人
先从打开所在的门外
身边的人

嗯……
若身边的人需要自己
自己都没办法将天父的爱给予
已经是错了
帮助并不是要远
或是要不认识
抑或是花很多钱
真心的付出
也是爱的表现
都值得
爱的鼓励

伸出在心里的关心
那对身边的
家人、朋友、好朋友

我会努力
对不起
冷漠安静地
但心里还是为你们
关心祝福

医生这条路上
需要的
也是这样的你们
我们都加油吧！

GBU。

God Loves Irene More Than Us

2009-05-21T23:31:00.004+04:00

Irene........................................................................................................................................

Sorry.......................................................................................................................................

Form 3....................................................................................................................... Our Hi - & Bye - .......
Our Chit-chat ...........................
Weird feeling when i knew i have such a "Far-related" relative..

Form 4 .............................................................................................................................
Form 5............................................................................... . . .
.
.
.

2009. 5.21
The End ???

The blank in between us..
Filled with one thought only..
" ya, i know her"
i m a failure ~

Towards a friend,
Yes, somehow, i assumes dat we could be just friend,
It seems like no way to upgrade our relationship anymore further..
When i knew she got bone cancer ..
yes, we were shocked but,
the thing we can do was limited.................................
2 years.. ZERO...................................................................................................
it's blank in our book of RELATIONSHIP

Giving care by discussion.
Showing concern by wondering.
Expressing love by words.
A fool. a regret.

When we heard dat u r getting better,
we felt glad..
But then, after that,..
nothing we had done for u...............
nOw, n0W,NOW
No way for me to have 2nd chance.
For You, 2 lives?
No.
I, U, We, They, Only have ONE LIFE.

You........................................................................................................
i know u are happie NOW.. ^-^ .............................................................................................
The place u are looking forward to.............................................................................................................
The one u are looking forward to................................................................................................................

......................................LOVE........................................

GoodBYE...............................................................................................
GBU........

从零

2009-05-20T15:35:00.003+04:00

又忘了过了多少天了
就像迷失掉的心情
在今天降临
好不容易这难熬的星期过了一半
今天
好想什么都停下来
刚考完终极考试的那一刻
以为尽力之后就将剩下的
交给天父吧

还未走出考场的门
发现竟然忘了答案是超出一个的
心情
没有心情的
脑里不再是转动的
身边的人、事、物停下来
好想重来……

理智回来了
感性的想法
算了
过去的自己也许自然就哭了
今天
原来坚强忍下去
未必是对自己残忍
只是
我自己给自己
一个星期三的惊喜

谢谢在身旁默默关心的你们
其实
我还好
我也这么认为
Chill~
对吧……
我在学着该怎么消化这股伤
或许你们也明白
我也明白时间会过去
笨蛋的做法
是个教诲的先碑……
代价的重
才会学习到下一次的完美
我
好不愿意
但今天用终考付上了
从零分
开始再走下去吧……

八色彩虹的幸福

2009-05-13T00:17:00.002+04:00

新一星期的课才开始两天，
心情的起伏跟过山车的转折相似度极高~ 〉。《
若说念医学系是个ENjoy的事情
我想你一定要很爱很爱这份工作
被告知下星期的终极大考的时间表
没有一个人能微笑度过了
五个大考
不想学会写〈死咯〉这个字
哈哈……
呼叫可爱天父必被恩守
^^

不能和懒惰虫交朋友
可是就爱跟睡猪一起做甜梦
咳……
紧急关头！！！
快收身养性了……
别让叹气与眼泪作结尾。

可是……
考试让希望泡汤了
虽然是傻傻的想着
理性还是盖过心中的任性
也许
这就是错过
但
相信决定还是对的
难过？呵呵……
八色彩虹
我一定会看见
这样的幸福。

失落感

2009-05-06T19:42:00.002+04:00

生物、普通化学、拉丁文。
今天的课好长……
早上十点多到下午四点~
虽然比星期四还是比较短了~

上完课了……
朋友们都约了去市场。
而她……我陪她去了。
走在她后面
看着她的影子
想牵强地用《可怜》予她

今天看着明明是事实的东西
被人扭曲了加在她无辜的身上
是朋友的我们
也痛在心里
正义感的驱使燃烧
让芊勇于解释并不是这样的事实
谢谢也庆幸芊对她的护卫
一霎那
见证了谣言止于智者这句话

释怀了
拜托别这样无辜加罪
过去或许存在的误会、摩擦
今天还在耿耿于怀
绅士，欣赏你们的风度
但请别自我夺走
我们给你们的三分球
沉默
或许更能发现身边的美好

这忽热忽冷的春天，
一刻我想被忧郁盯上了……
冰淇淋想念它给的快乐
为什么感觉那么伤~
现在，只想听你说话

怎么了……
心情是灰色国度的
这样地被搁浅
连心也知道不是控制范围内
答案在吧。

KaeDeng ^^

2009-05-06T19:14:00.002+04:00

Harpie BirthdaE o0O...
mmm...SORRY!!
actually i had a big exam dat day..
had been prepared , worked for it for quite sum time..
so.. din msg u on dat particular 020509..

SORRY!!!!!!!!

Somehow, did work out sumthg specially for u.. *wink*
Looking forward rite.. Hee.. Secret! =p
so.. wait for it la.. will be exposed soonn.. *grin*
Jiayou o0O!! in every field.. and, cherish Laoda o..
u are same as me.. ^^
''Diu Man Gong Ju ">> Princess of slyness.. ~
Lol..

i m being called by my roomate.. * lame*

Okie la.. beloved girl, All d best & Take care ya~ Love~

习惯

2009-05-02T00:23:00.006+04:00

習慣，就是時間累積而來的一種動作。

早上，我總是走進7-eleven。

走了走，東選西選，還是選回了每天吃的三明治。

習慣，就是時間累積而來的一種動作。

進到辦公室坐下後，總是開了機收信，然後放歌，

看了看，上選下選，還是聽起了那首最愛聽的。

開始寫程式前，總是洗了洗杯子走近飲水機，

看著瓶瓶罐罐，最後還是拿了一包就走。

人生總有很多的選擇。

每天要面對的選擇，很多。

吃什麼，做什麼，玩什麼，看什麼....

雖然你每天都在做選擇。

不過，總是...總是...

會選回你每次選的那個。

因為習慣。

習慣，是時間累積而來的一種動作。

情人間常說：「我對你不再有愛，都變成了習慣了。」

其實，習慣並沒有什麼不好。

它讓你自然的去做。

自然的去想他，自然的去愛他。

當你已經不覺得自己在付出時，

也許你覺得，你己開始習慣，有他陪伴在你的生命中，

那才是真的愛。

有什麼不好？

我一直認為

很多事情開始要一個人獨自去做時

就失去它的意義：

當
習慣了兩個人一起吃飯
習慣了兩個人一起看書
習慣了兩個人一起工作
習慣了兩個人一起散步
習慣了兩個人一起回家
習慣了兩個人一起聊天
習慣了兩個人一起商量事情
習慣了兩個人一起發呆
習慣了兩個人一起喝咖啡
習慣了兩個人一起..........

開始一個人

很多快樂都不再了...

請珍惜你身邊所有

把握任何一個美麗的機會

失去了就不再了...

現在請你回想一下

你習慣的那個人，是不是讓你感覺很熟悉，就像家人一樣？

這種感覺，不是那麼容易就可以擁有的，應該好好的珍惜。

也許有天你失去了，才會明白這個人，在你的心理是佔了很大的位置。

好緣份是很神奇的東西，它只送給用心去經營的人。

最近你是否不再那麼用心，去關心或態度冷淡了嗎???

趕快去抓住你那個熟悉的人吧，必竟你們曾經走過那一段，不是嗎？

这是一直放在e-mail信箱里蛮喜欢的一个e-mail。总觉得人生中一定有这么一个人……而且是让自己感觉习惯的日长夜久……家人是你勇敢发脾气的人，家是你任性地避难所……这个习惯也想和这样习惯的人一起习惯。一种幸福。偶然，生命中就是上帝的奇妙，丘比特的顽皮。。那这样习惯的人被你遇着了，是你被作弄了吗？呵……那……我愿意。=p

I LOVE LIFE

2009-04-28T20:02:00.003+04:00

Spring is here.
About 23 degree Celcius in the day time..
But, kinda great number of MALAYSIANs here is complaining
VERY VERY HOT
from morning to night
( Good example here is my roomates especially Lynn .. =p)
i wonder how we gona survive when we bec to
Malaysia on june..
O0ops..
SUMMER!
kinda hate MR SUN now..
Lolzz..
and we wear only one layer out to class,
still, can hear complaints =X
actually i oso feel heaty.. >. <
Life is kinda buzy recently..
(when thought of coming final~ Faint... )
but stil,
hapie when thought of can bec HOME SWEET HOME soon ..

A GOOD LINK -- I LOVE LIFE

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1140858598580&ref=nf

REnewing.. REmoulding.. REfining.. Get NEW O2 from here..

TOMORROW is another BETTER dae~

With love. Charmaine signa.

霹雳2号

2009-04-26T11:02:00.008+04:00

就快第九个月啦……
想想时间
还真是过的挺快的……
越接近回家的日子，
被等待的一场接一场的球赛

考……考……考
啊~
可恶……太笨了……
有时也不知觉的让自己松下来……
那股正义和未来的同情心，
像逝去的冬天一样
在脑勺后冬眠了……
呼~

难得医大赐三天保护令大假
请令小黄瓜们自我隔离
希特勒杀手可不是闹着玩的哦……
嗯……三天的72小时忙了什么……
周末的首场球赛
“Charsiu　ＶＳ　Tartiana”
吡~
黄卡……
被宣判出局！

吓醒了……
前所未有……
2号……你永远、仍是我的克星
上帝、神啊、主……
球场外的我
脑中像有淤血块似的
久久冷冻未能从恶梦中醒来

咳……
我伤，我悲
我不哭，我不睡
我吃，我笑
用日剧里的微笑伴我进梦乡

说了Ｎ遍的安慰
依然这是要面对
失败不是错，
懒惰是活该；
笨蛋不是罪
Ｐｅｎｄ了站起来……

４，２，５……
好帅气的号码～
我也想不到……

加油呐！叉烧的物语。

错过

2009-04-19T13:14:00.004+04:00

以为只看小说就能看到爱的颜色

这算是什么生活

我们留在自己的沙漠开始魂不守舍

等待时间流过

如果你像天气总对我不冷也不热

我不能选择沉默

爱。情只是个泡沫脆弱得一触即破

你要好好把握

错过我们都有过错

在幸福的角落还要再奢求什么

直到一天遗憾开出它的花朵

谁都会明白从前才是最快乐

错过上天都有过错

创造悲欢离合要我们承担结果
曾经停泊过就已很值得

每一个人是另一个人的景色

在寂寞的时候什么比爱更赤裸裸

失败的鱼

2009-04-19T11:42:00.006+04:00

春天后的冬天
我可以在她死心前回到从前吗……

期盼好久的春天来了，现在只是摄氏15上下吧。。可是我们有好些时候都会开始埋怨天气好热……最近常听大马的朋友们在投诉天气超闷热的，宁馨小姐的PM还提说TISSUE不能离手耶~ 嗯……不能想象若六月回家时摄氏31度的天气该怎么撑丫~ 咋听现在都不想出门了……

春天，很好听的名字……过了冬天后我们的期待。希望越大，失望也使正比的方程式总是对的！昨天，竟然还会下雪哦……不可思议！这季节的太阳会执勤至八点半……所以总会觉得时间好早……再晃一下好像也没关系！晚餐也许都会忘了呢……雪花来凑热闹了……能怪的是我们吧……把地球弄坏了……温室效应日趋严重……就连现在，就像第二个冬天了~ 所以，一年变得有五个季节了哦……>.<

Hope is directly proportional to Disappointment. 当我被称为刁蛮公主时，也许就是刁蛮作祟。潜意识里从来都不知道……原来我失望了，才更体会平时被宠坏了而失去的感觉。刚开始的不能适应，就算到现在健康的适应程度也是“麻麻得”……但总有特别的人会出现为你着急，为你关心；在需要的时候，帮你想办法，帮你出主意；但……自以为的“以为”已经有了某种程度的了解，“以为”很多事大家会明白……“以为”自己已经尽力想要补救了……就是讨厌这样的“以为”…… 对不起……

《以为》原来会伤害我身边的好多人……我认为能让你开心的，我认为我可以被代替的，我认为这样对你最好，我认为我有努力过了（真心去努力后的失败）……至少我看到我好像总会伤害你……我也不太会照顾人，尤其是拥有太会照顾人的朋友，是一种莫大幸福。但难过的是，我好像，我不知道我可以为你做些什么……那坚强的外表，脱下来后连我都却步……因为那伤痛是过去的阴影。我害怕我的笨、我的傻……我的无心，会无心地让你受伤害……战战兢兢……对，我是害怕的。好奇怪哦，哈哈……竟然连面对生活的人会出现这种感觉……天啊，你的胆子到底去哪儿了……有事没事都被吓着……真是个笨蛋！简单，我有了简单……太简单，我有了失去……那……我到底要什么呢……

P/S：好想家的小女孩……爸爸手上的大公主……想念你每次的蛋挞，想念白斩鸡饭，想念豆花水，想念芙蓉烧包，想念黑黑的福建面丫、月光和……想念在店里静静陪妈妈工作的时候……想念和爸妈、二姐、弟弟和JESS谈天说笑的晚餐……这儿可以像家吗……

夜晚的天堂

2009-04-18T01:17:00.004+04:00

第222天
俄罗斯的春天

希特拉的生日
终于盼望的假期至临
杀手的忌日
霎时好好开心
虽然
像SARS地对抗自己
隔离的PushKin
似乎比冷漠更冷漠了

看见了
你也看到了
这就是灰尘的膜
肮脏了
剥离掉的面具
原来雄星不单纯了
*咳*
雌绵羊太傻
饿了的狼太假
认错了声音
靠近了一瞬间
没了后悔的权利
牧人笑她太傻
真相说荼毒的牧人才是错

孤傲的你
早已远离是习惯
说是保护的方式
殊不知这才是智慧
爱蒙在怀抱里
天使的化身
眼泪被心疼
恶魔当笨蛋
回不到原地
想年夜晚的天堂
不了
想当孤傲的我

回到过去

2009-04-17T13:18:00.006+04:00

春天交响曲
大大的太阳公公执勤

我不想……我不想……不想长大……长大后就…… 回不了过去，。。…… 看着回忆走下去……也许放弃、忘记怎么笑了……

100分的天堂

2009-04-14T21:28:00.011+04:00

忘了这是第几天了，不清楚多少天没写部落格了……只是感觉这好像过了好久，发生了很多事……很多东西都变了……

念书念书，我念了，忘了、学了，记了，急了，怕了、被可爱的上帝眷顾了！
一个星期七天，上课六天，每一天最少五个小时的课，竟然有这么多考试~ 俄罗斯文，拉丁文，解剖课有两个系统两百多个名词要背~还有普通化学的是实验考验……这一次也忙复活节的庆祝活动……忙、累……该习惯吧…… 对，我习惯了…… 我当然没有埋怨，这一次，是害怕了~

去祷告开会，感觉大家都有一种自我诠释面对上星期的心情……我跟你说，我怕，我真的念不完，但不是每次都念不完吗……哈~可是，就是不甘愿，没有完美。书永远都念不完啊……笨蛋！所以丫，我不再因为浪费一个小时而不去了，因为精神的折磨使时间一秒一秒地虚晃，迟到也不怕了。就算要结尾祷告。

我回来了！用你在祝福的雨水中，回到孤独的椅子，面对凌乱无章的书桌，加油！
那星期，我真的感恩！谢谢丫……拿5，5，拿4……就算那天解剖学的考试，紧张的肚子疼，维持了五个小时，我还是顺利过关~心跳快得………真的……～是傻瓜……^^ＧＥＮＣＨＥＭ呢……就像战后的现场！呵……失败了……因为别人的疏忽，我问了，考试时人人都紧张压力所以口头上转告的失误，不怪、还是接受了。我知道没有有错，可是Olga都是你的错~呜呜…… 说好Procedure用BaSo4, 最后却是要我们自己知道用Ba(No3)2.. 可能我的错！太笨了~ 结果Cation一早就找到了， Anion被拖累了……时间到，糟糕！从头到尾我都做完却找不到……液体用完了，算了，用猜的吧~啊……错！ Olga还“奖赏”我 ……'' Charmaine, last minute u told me this ... (我说我还需要时间……）.. now.. are u guessing ...??? '' 不开心！我每次都很认真上她的课，温书，努力了解她的功课，可是她……就是这样……对我……我的4，我还是心甘情愿地接受就变成你的不在乎了吗？吴阿乌阿…… 〉。《

第一个复活节……像是梦一般度过了。策划的过程中虽然困难重重，也接到了许多负面的回应，但学习就从跌倒开始，经验不从成功累计。过去就算在学校多么成功的办活动，多小到好大，总要失败，谦虚下去、才是正确的心态。第一次在Moscow的活动当秘书，我虽没有经验，但答应接下的原因是看见家政需要帮忙无助的样子，学业的忙碌竟然忽略在考量外了。感谢主啊！^^我没有荒废学业，永远被抱守在他的恩业内。当天的策划也非常感谢家政和Brandon的谅解，我有很多部分帮不上忙~抱歉~但无论如何，不看过去,很开心我们的合作，工作，以后向前看。再学习……

第一个突变……生活上的朋友好像小大人，原来迎合的结果是……这样的……失去后的结果是……这样的……朋友，室友，课友，系友，……我好想念中学噢……就那样的简单，不用太多的担心……你们看到的，我们一起的，他们说笑的……我们是这样的，十八岁的傻。哈哈……

别人常说，我和她活在自己的世界。说真的，现在，想念了……

那我改变，真的好吗……你们说不好，但你们说“要和我说东西”…………可是我其实也不知道……你不开心了……我觉得我没有能力让你开心，我会找能让你微笑的人……这是一直以来的想法……你说也许是我又出来社会工作，被感染这是对人的方式……可是我本来就这样……我想的要的都只是身边的你、我、她都能好好的用心生活……难道这是一个奢求了……也许这是笨过后要付出的泪……不想长大的傻，跌一跤会醒吗……现在，请你发现。朋友爱，无所不在。。

冥蒙中的事实，我一个人，加你一个人，加她一个人，可以是很简单的。。那放开双手寻找那一个100分的天堂……

永远守护我的他

2009-04-01T05:31:00.004+04:00

第205天
春天的香气

在异国念书的旅程
除了忙碌念书
相信总会有孤单的时候

1， 2，3 。。
到205了，
心里又在期待着什么呢

从第一天的
《飞往梦想》的期待
到《等待圣诞》的梦幻
接着《回家见想念的人》的依恋
《新年的感觉》。。
《回来的悲》。。
《重新等待的失望》。。
《两个人的宿舍》。。
现在 ……《两个月半的六月》

外国的月亮真的比较圆吗
我想我喜欢我家的月亮多一些……

傻傻的我病好了，却又种失落感
之前好想你，却。。碍于病样的声音害怕你瞎担心，
第一次，匆匆想盖电话……
明明想跟你聊好久好久……却又害怕下个月帐单来时你的压力
总觉得自己好依赖，好像是你的错吧。。
可是，我还是有好努力想独立起来。。
现在总觉得自己离你好远，看不见你而不开心
以前看见你时却不发觉珍惜你的不够
你总投诉我对她比对你好
可是我却以为你明白我

曾经你的无微不至但我不以为意
你总是担心我会饿肚子六个人的早餐有八个选择
放学回家或许有你早上特地准备的营养午餐
彩色冰冻菜燕热腾腾午餐水果加豆花水
不起眼的动作其实我都有记在心里
只是你应该不知道我真的有在乎你

我知道的走着不平凡的路崎岖的让你担心睡不下
好多个夜晚你想起我而望着天花板就拨那不再陌生号码
气不下的冲动其实我很窝心
你害怕我缺这省那总想替我满足什么
快邮嘘寒再问暖
你的爱让我感觉我一直在亏欠你
你总说不用那么辛苦我给你这或那
可是我总爱做笨蛋
有机会继续学自己心爱的小提琴
却老远跑去做站十二个小时别人的奴隶
不当你的公主远到《恶落死》的边缘当风雪中的小草

你还会生气吗
我的任性好像都留下你接受的抱歉
你永远到最后都配合我的对不起
记得这个冬天你说不要把心交给其他男生
你总是那么直接可爱
“我不会那么笨再找第二个男生来管我吧 …^-^ ”
我的三秒答案
你笑了
身边的草晃丫转丫
知道你害怕总是担心
知道你会不舍得
阿姨说你最疼就是我，但开心地是
你从来没放弃过
60 60 24 12 365
我的守护者

心中的位子就算再满
总要被取代
我还能找到像你这样的守护者吗
爱我疼我包容我宠坏我关心我
就算骂我让我流泪还是深爱着的他
不知道
但只想继续被你守护的心
我也努力守护着这份幸福

永远的守护
我的Daddy~~~
我的国王陛下

错爱

2009-03-27T12:41:00.006+03:00

下雨了……
让雨水洗刷的爱……
坦荡荡的裸露在你眼前……
错时错动错心
你说我抱的不紧，
何尝……我的笑容
掩盖的只是被推开的痛心
对不起
烂得遍体鳞伤的病人
什么维他命或是禁药
可以再给你原谅
宠坏幸福了
我活该吧
骂在心中的痛
我失去资格再抚慰
没了那垂死挣扎的病人
我还能依赖谁
无助只因太相信幸福
又累计一个活该
连我也不相信
我这么坏
原来
我也是坏人的俘虏

奇怪的遗失

2009-03-26T23:38:00.005+03:00

在雪地里的日子
第199天不知不觉，

下一刻是第200天了……
上一个夏天还在努力的生活，偶而发白日梦地以童话的梦填满空荡的二十；
上上个春天还在课堂上傻傻地努力，嚓嘶嚓嘶的抄下老师暖暖爱喂的字句；
上上上个秋天还在操场笨笨的与真心，和一起努力的朋友女生们在聊个没完没了~
真没想到……
这个冬天……会在莫斯哥念书了……

从来也没想过飘洋过海，念着一个梦想。一个夏天的悲剧，熟悉的都知道一个小女生带着痛的成长故事。出国念书，NO　ＷＡＹ～那时候，知道梦想的路是得靠自己去抵达……现在的，不再是过去；属于未来的，感谢有现在。爸爸妈妈，你们的含辛茹苦，我感受得到……但愿我的将来能为你们付出些什么的……机会，在等待～用心念书，是妈妈说的实际；爱上那科你不爱的老师，是爸爸的鼓励。我，好想永远加油不跌到……但，人生每个阶段，不跌到，或许不知道原来这就是你的完美计划……那，去年的秋天遇见你，是人生中的转捩点。感谢你一直给我的恩赐，感谢你给我碰壁再赏恩的爱，让我理解感受你的用心，一切又一切的圣恩是我人生完整的部分。好好收藏……更想与人分享这份爱与喜悦……你永远守护着那迷失的小孩，而那小孩只想永远跟着你……与你同在喔……。

好忙……这个周末就……忙……忙……忙！……ＧｅｎＣｈｅｍ季考到来，Ａｎａｔｏｍｙ几个身体系统的ＭＣＱ，一贯ＨＩＳＴＯＬＯＧＹ的温习，之前的一箩筐笔记因生病而怠慢，还有也是因病而翘课的功课笔记……ＭＦ的感卡片设计，期限只剩两天，好像真的想不到找谁帮忙了……我想要多一些时间……想睡多多多一些……最近精神有点晃晃的……预防ＭＲ。发烧和头痛奶奶再来到防，还真得小心为妙……真的没有能力，在“跌倒”多一次了……

待会儿要继续挑夜灯、烧灯丝～哎～～～　加油……加油丫！＝）

夜晚的空气，凝聚冰冻的思念，慢慢融化这个空间……好像遗失的空洞，不美好……若我需要你的陪伴，有可能吗……　

心形蝴蝶

2009-03-24T11:32:00.007+03:00

飞起来，
别回头，
愿张着隐形的翅膀
用心飞去
心形蝴蝶的梦
运用着身上的五彩缤纷
完成幻想
让世界都惊叹！
用属于你自己的想法，
去看这个世界
去造福这个世界！

p/s ：今早四点起身，头还是痛的~这一刻，忍不下了……夜深人静，雪花收不了溶了。我真的害怕了……从来没有的害怕，就算曾经病得留鼻血都还是努力下去……我不是豆腐。一个理想，我的坚持……答应今后不会轻易不开心……对不起，我失败了……以为只是发烧头疼小病没什么大不了的……但已经第四天了，是不烧了，但时冷时热的感觉不好受……糟的是头痛从不退下……书念不下，眼看考试一直逼近，明天第一战---生物昆虫之巅……我却今晚才勉强开书。你说不行的话不要勉强自己，下星期再考—……但pending……和pend自己对我来说是没不同的……我对自己的承诺~ =.= 我也不好意思一再麻烦你们那么无微不至的照顾~我只能允许止痛药的帮助……谢谢你，Valynne。。我不是不想说，只是我把能忍的痛减到最低……但谢谢你整夜的陪伴~谢谢你，Charis。。说帮我温书……谢谢你，Joanna。。那杯温暖菊花茶……谢谢你，芊。。那暖暖的晚餐。。放心吧，好起来了。=）

今天翘课了~无奈~考试的压力，不断祈祷再祈祷~我可以的~但一专心一会儿，脑袋有种微裂涨开的感觉……Saac进来拿了张卡片给我……是大马的信……不可思议，有完整的英俄地址资料名字等……连我自己都不会运用电脑打俄罗斯地址呢……拆开发现是我中学念女校的老公--王可欣……意外……病况中的一股清泉~ 那心形蝴蝶生日卡片和书签，加甜甜的祝福，感动又感激！谢谢你让我知道远方的我们还记得彼此，也彼此为彼此加油~谢谢你，你说蝴蝶是唯一让你联想到我的昆虫~ 真巧，我明天考昆虫~今晚就要把它们吃进肚里明天再上战场了~呵……

谢谢~嗯，我会努力画出梦想中的蝴蝶的~你也加油！你们都加油！

pp/s: 病好了吧……不怕了。

Right or Wrong

2009-03-23T07:13:00.003+03:00

d 196 th dAE
Story .. in Moscow ~

nO MATtER U WISH , or,
He oR she don approach T0,
bad things stil can happen ..
Difference only..
d Level of DEVILment..
and Level of our self-CONSCIENCE

Case 1
( i heard from Charis, Gan & Jasper who witnessed it)

1 day, a blind man..
i guessed he must be very tired dy,
and had a hard time from d entrance of Metro station
to reach d platform...
reali, u can take 15 mins to reach if it's a interchange station
FOR A NORMAL PERSON
So... When he reached d place of where head of train wil b stopping
SUDDENLY, he fell down into d railway..
OMG!
In dis time-intensive moment,
Jasper was walking toward d direction
2 Russian guys nearby quickly jumped down
and saved him..
d next 10 seconds, d metro reached..
D saviours of d blind man indeed are BRAVE and KIND
If at dis determinante moment,
everyone stil thinks twice before a decision to be made
A tragedy could just happen in front of my friends...
It's a thing very hard to say
correct or wrong
to do or not-to-do
should or shouldn't
but
i m glad,
this world stil hav people like
the 2 Russian guys..
d no of dis should keep increasing

Case 2
In the metro,we witnessed it at diff time ..

Very often, u can see
Homeless people wil take
metro as 2nd home..
instead of wayside of somewhere else..
cause it's reli reli cold outside..
And,we, who take 1.5 hours to reach class by metro
strongly agree tat metro is a good place to sleep..
cos it keeps shaking and moving..Hee..
These people.. sometimes hav a kind of smell
u can try imagine d smell of beggar..and, tat it is
D feeling of pity on them was rising inside my heart,
this city is full of loneliness
d city who is claimed of
D MOST EXPENSIVE CITY in d WORLD
No one care u can survive or not,
d government wil only provide u
a small-roof over their head when they r wif white hairs
But, not all.. d smelly one
sometime can b drunkers too..
passengers wil away from them as far as they could
if possible,we will not stand near to them..
Not being paranoid,
but foreigners are dangerous in their country
sometimes, they may b couple who are leading
this kind of vagrant life in metro TOGETHER
2 people together
it is naturally a sweet thing,
but when hard time comes, they suffer this worst of d worst together
worth it? or they reli have no choice?
God has all d plans we wil not understand..
but they choose to be together..
and no matter how stil together..
SWEET??? our BITTER !!!!
right or wrong ...

Case 3
Real cases can happen around you without more elaboration or practical example~ But try to forget it after it did happen

Hurting people can be directly
or indirectly
Words can be d most powerful weapon..
i heard before..
rumour, gossip and bad word
!@#$%^&* to BEAUTIFY d world
A big qUestiOn mark exists
my world, our world is cancerous
u & i think we are right,
"My true & false"-
Your very own philosophy
Wasting time on hurting
Gaining fun from self-entertaining
Stepping up..
Rising up..
Speaking up..
My right?!
i hope we can be in tat way ..
against d devil~
and WE ARE RIGHT without hurting anyone..

Morphosis --- Initial stage of 21 yeeers o0O

2009-03-20T23:20:00.005+03:00

Do U have....

2009-03-20T22:17:00.006+03:00

Sun wil shine, my friend

Won't let you cry, my dear
seeing you shed a tear,
make my world disappear
you'll never be alone
in darkness.

Seeing my smile, my friend
We are with you
holding hands
you have got to believe,
you are my destiny
We 're meant to be
your friends ... ...
That's what
A friend should be

Do u have such friend..no matter boy OR girl.. I m not self-obsessed or anything else.. BUT.. i reali feel myself is very "lucky" or.. i should count on my blessing.. I hav such FrIENDSSSSS....

True friends .. THEY did existed ...... and, don giv up to continue looking for it ..

♬ St^rry St^rry mOm3nts ♫ ♪

起点。 。

那永远的26日-盼望着《五年來的早晨 》的到来

給十五歲的你

《天使為甚麼能夠飛》

铁盒 Locked Heart

I want my life to be colourful ♥

Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated.

爸爸妈妈的《谎言》-警醒着……

心安，黯然一笑

错了

随《变》

Bruno Mars -♥ Just the Way You Are ♥ Violin Remix

Glee Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are by J Rice & Jason Chen)

Tong Hua (童话) Cover - English/Chinese + Violin/Trumpet by Jason Chen & J...

✿ Lesson behind medical lesson ✿

NO misunderstanding! :D

Refreshed

Vice-versa Theory

他和她说，她跟他说

ChinaHeart International

Summer Mission Trip to China

chinaheart mercy

坚持的误会

Amazing Snow White

ChinaHeart Children

一起走过的日子- Day 3 officially ^-^

Beside me ..

细水长流

Beautiful sky

Winter's Precursor

Missing Violin, Thinking of Piano

一个月两个星期三天四个小时

退潮

Trials in life

Xi'An Part 1 - Smiles

Re- Breathe

放手的沉默

心情报告 ;p

手中溜走的幸福

ThankFUL..

A reason

想家的味道

MCQ -

伸出真心的双手

God Loves Irene More Than Us

从零

八色彩虹的幸福

失落感

KaeDeng ^^

习惯

I LOVE LIFE

霹雳2号

错过

失败的鱼

夜晚的天堂

回到过去

100分的天堂

永远守护我的他

错 爱

奇怪的遗失

心形蝴蝶

Right or Wrong

Morphosis --- Initial stage of 21 yeeers o0O

Do U have....

起点。。

那永远的26日-盼望着《五年來的早晨》的到来

错爱